11-29-2019, 01:00 PM
So these past two days, as I'm playing my loops, it feels as if the FRM is kicking in quite seriously at last. I'm basing this on the following: first I'd get this very, very... erm, pleasant, sensations, kinda sexual, lol (pleasant enough that I'm actually moaning to myself a bit, lol 
), and I remember this happening on UMS from time to time (so it might be related to fears from the root/sacral region getting extricated; there's a pretty good chance these are pre-speech fears and it's why they feel this way when they're getting uncorked/reversed, assuming the pleasure principle and all that), which also serves to give me a pretty strong "kick in the pants" energy-wise, and then I'd start feeling these wonky "sucking in" sensations, coming from my right foot, liver and heart area mostly, which I've also come to associate with FRM doing one of its things, but now it's a way more pleasant sensation than it used to be on the earlier FRMs (in the foot, it kinda feels as if a splinter of some sort was being pulled out, and then the void left filled up/healed up).
I'm also getting tons of more-or-less random musings which are pretty enlightening and useful, both from a personal perspective, as well as from a more academic/methodological perspective. I'm focused on this enough that I did not even mind missing my morning bardic practice time today, lol. This is important as well.
Continuing, oh yes.
I have some sort of rehearsal on Sunday, and then I'm packing my DMSI to-go and touring out of town from Monday until Thursday. I like the hotel we'll be staying at, they have *amazing* comp breakfasts, lol. I'll be stuffing my face with *gusto*.
), and I remember this happening on UMS from time to time (so it might be related to fears from the root/sacral region getting extricated; there's a pretty good chance these are pre-speech fears and it's why they feel this way when they're getting uncorked/reversed, assuming the pleasure principle and all that), which also serves to give me a pretty strong "kick in the pants" energy-wise, and then I'd start feeling these wonky "sucking in" sensations, coming from my right foot, liver and heart area mostly, which I've also come to associate with FRM doing one of its things, but now it's a way more pleasant sensation than it used to be on the earlier FRMs (in the foot, it kinda feels as if a splinter of some sort was being pulled out, and then the void left filled up/healed up).I'm also getting tons of more-or-less random musings which are pretty enlightening and useful, both from a personal perspective, as well as from a more academic/methodological perspective. I'm focused on this enough that I did not even mind missing my morning bardic practice time today, lol. This is important as well.
Continuing, oh yes.
I have some sort of rehearsal on Sunday, and then I'm packing my DMSI to-go and touring out of town from Monday until Thursday. I like the hotel we'll be staying at, they have *amazing* comp breakfasts, lol. I'll be stuffing my face with *gusto*.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
