11-19-2019, 03:41 PM
(11-19-2019, 12:22 PM)Griffin Wrote: 136 days already...
4 and a half months...
I am a little discouraged at the pace my progress is going.
I have noticed some fear removal aspects, but it is subtle and I am still not making massive progress towards my goal.
there is just this constant battle going on of me trying to do stuff but not doing it, I become overwhelmed and seek distraction from it.
was at a meeting yesterday. they said well you need a purpose, a mission something you want to do. problem is I have one and I know what the mission is but still, I can't bring myself to do the necessary work...
I am just venting a bit, but when I see people doing the actual work, I feel worthless because I can't even bring myself to do a small thing that is not that hard.
Fear of success is what I think is most likely, but then I would think that UMS, LTU5, E2, UMOP, ASC, and MLS would have figured that out by now...
The thing I’ve found with the FRM on UMS is that you have to help it along consciously. It penetrates to a deeper level than the previous one, but at least for me, it just opened the door. I had to do the investigation into where my fears came from myself. The good news is that once I really understood the why, the fears seemed to clear up. At least to a great degree. It kind of involved being in my head for a few weeks and not worrying about the external goals until I felt done.
