11-16-2019, 04:30 PM
Day 50 (day 3 off)
I decided to head to the city; after an hour and a half drive I got there. It was about 1:30 when I arrived, and I went to a science-ish museum. I kinda knew that it would be aimed at kids, but when I got there it hit me hard. I had something to eat, wandered around, and left. I walked and walked.
I’d looked at museum options, and I’d walked to another one on my list, but when I got there I stood at the front door and couldn’t find any desire to enter. My emotional state had cratered, and I felt exhausted. It felt like 9pm and I was shocked to look at my watch and see that it was 4pm.
I’m sitting in my car now. It’s 4:30pm, and I got a movie ticket for 6:30 in the city. I might get something pure sugar to try to wake up. I might cancel the ticket and just go home. I don’t know. I don’t know what’s going on with me. Maybe I’m still jetlagged. But I haven’t felt this emotionally dead in a rather long time.
I decided to head to the city; after an hour and a half drive I got there. It was about 1:30 when I arrived, and I went to a science-ish museum. I kinda knew that it would be aimed at kids, but when I got there it hit me hard. I had something to eat, wandered around, and left. I walked and walked.
I’d looked at museum options, and I’d walked to another one on my list, but when I got there I stood at the front door and couldn’t find any desire to enter. My emotional state had cratered, and I felt exhausted. It felt like 9pm and I was shocked to look at my watch and see that it was 4pm.
I’m sitting in my car now. It’s 4:30pm, and I got a movie ticket for 6:30 in the city. I might get something pure sugar to try to wake up. I might cancel the ticket and just go home. I don’t know. I don’t know what’s going on with me. Maybe I’m still jetlagged. But I haven’t felt this emotionally dead in a rather long time.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
