11-12-2019, 01:59 PM
Damnit, I'm tired of this emotional roller-coaster. I don't know what's true or what is not anymore; that's why I need to get this cleared up as soon as possible. Trouble is, I'll be busy with work from Saturday on, and am probably touring next week out of town.
Because - on one hand, if she did not do the above, but just decided to game me a little bit by using a "przydupas" at the behest of her "BFF", then it's actually a pretty good sign especially considering certain things I've noticed that evening (she was *definitely* trying to get my attention albeit in a game-y way) that she's simply gone a little bit bonkers about me, and then we can talk (and she did it in such an obvious way that my other girls just looked at it and went "now that's a little bit much, don't ya think"). But - on the other hand - if she did it in order to drag me into running after her to just tell me "sorry, I'm fucking this guy now, lol", then that would be terribad.
And, because of my ambivalent nature which apparently hadn't yet been fixed in these matters, I'm on this roller-coaster of emotions right now, which is, whatever she's up to, *exactly her intention*.
Gaaah.
Because - on one hand, if she did not do the above, but just decided to game me a little bit by using a "przydupas" at the behest of her "BFF", then it's actually a pretty good sign especially considering certain things I've noticed that evening (she was *definitely* trying to get my attention albeit in a game-y way) that she's simply gone a little bit bonkers about me, and then we can talk (and she did it in such an obvious way that my other girls just looked at it and went "now that's a little bit much, don't ya think"). But - on the other hand - if she did it in order to drag me into running after her to just tell me "sorry, I'm fucking this guy now, lol", then that would be terribad.
And, because of my ambivalent nature which apparently hadn't yet been fixed in these matters, I'm on this roller-coaster of emotions right now, which is, whatever she's up to, *exactly her intention*.
Gaaah.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
