Who do you love - DMSI 3.3.2 Jandom Rusings

[Have at ye]

Trouble is, I still feel like punching my vocal coach, grrr.

I know the feeling

Singing lessons are tough for me, and they always have been. You’re making subtle changes to your physiology, trying to get a specific sound that it’s difficult to hear on your own, and you’re getting feedback and failing to do it. It’s surprisingly physical and when I fail at finding what my singing teacher is trying to get me to do, it hits the self-hatred button in me and I want to die.

I have no advice, just wanted to share that vocal training is known for being very emotionally triggering. It’s not just you.

Hang in there and keep at it.

Thanks, appreciate it.

But that's not quite exactly the reason I want to punch her.

It's actually because I was dumb enough to allow my trust in her skills and intentions to let me get caught sideways when she suddenly decided I'm a different voice-type than I am (based on phrenology, i. e. I supposedly kinda look like this tenor who died in 60s...). At first, she informed of her idea - I decided: well, let's see, who knows, she rarely was wrong before. Turned out it was bunk. But - instead of, like, admitting to herself she may have made an error in judgement, she proceeded to sabotage my progress by continuing to lead me into becoming a baritone *without informing me of this fact*. This was extremely unhealthy physically for me and damaging to my progress, and now I'm in the process of reversing most of the damage and misinformation (which is going pretty well actually). I think I described the situation in more detail in my UMS journal.

She also involved herself in my private affairs which I find abhorrent.

EDIT: Actually, as far as singing instructors go, she was probably the only one I ever worked with who actually knew how to prevent her singers from experiencing the frustration and self-hatred you've mentioned. That's one hell of a skill in itself.