AM6 Run 1 Rebirth Of The Dead Man---tolgaocal80

[tolgaocal80]

Stage:2
My voice completely changed. I was a light stammerer then this thing completely gone. My voice tone get thickened. My body language changed, I was behaving different. I stopped masturbating for 20 days, stopped to drink coffe, and when drink it caused a painfull headache I was drinking at least 5 cup of coffee before , smoking cigaret, started taking shower when I feel any discomfort, waking up earlier to go college, more tension and social anxiety gone. More dreams.
Dreams:

1. I was going to somewhere with my family and my mom was driving the car. And she was saying to me that all stuff to do is unnecessary , dont do that boy, “you can’t do that all time ( ı guess she was talking about this am6 sub, my subconsious started to talk with me ,ı am not good with my family they were too restrictive for me) and then ı told her “ ı can do that ı will do that, and ı was giving to her directions to there(somewhere ı cant say any exact name) and then ı told her “okey, as you want, dont go there mom” than she told “we already are here ” than we climbed a steep hill,
And that place “ı have to came everyday” there was wonderfull, there was like heaven, ı can’t describe there, we were in the vast, green valley and we could watch the sun in the sky. I felt very happy and grateful but some fear was still there, and in my dream ı consiously trying to stop that feel. when ı woke up ı felt too happy and relax.
2. I saw a female friend who wants sex with me, there was feather on her face. She looks to bad.
3. ı saw many cut cats claw, and ı was buying them in a box, one of claw was still moves and then ı looked at it ı realized ı have to beat or kill that guy who did this to them. And in the dream ı know my mom was there and she were knowing that guy and ı told her ,give me that guys phone or adress ı know you know them, or ı will absolutly find that guy.
That night ı saw a cat puppy while going to gym, and ı didnt do anything, but ı want to take it and go home,in my childhood were too many moments like that, Another dream ı was talking with dan bilzerian, famous insta guy. That was too short and ı woke up.

4. Too many strange dreams, in general, in a gigantic atmosphere and magnificent views of nature, suchs as canyon. Passing in fascinating places and bad events and I can not save my family. When I woke up I get the idea that I cant prevent such things because I am not physically strong enough.
5. Many dreams about girls, they kiss me, talking with me and things like that.