10-31-2019, 07:43 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-31-2019, 07:45 PM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
(10-31-2019, 07:30 PM)Have at ye Wrote: Most true as well. It's as the saying goes, around here at least (as a sidenote: again with the hell thing? What the hell's up with me lately?): "when one lives in hell, one wants to drag others down into it".
I wouldn't say that's her case. She's generally a nice and supportive person. She just ran out of patience dealing with my toxicity and doesn't seem to feel I deserve the same patience and understanding from her as she's been given from others. She judges me harshly and doesn't feel I deserve any more chances, like she does. In jer eyes, SHE'S worth saving when she's drowning, but I'm just a load that'll drag her down with me. SHE'S worthy of patience, understanding and not being judged, but I'm worthy of scorn. I've been unfair to her, but she's never been unfair to me in her eyes. Not even now. And I think she's been unfair plenty of times in plenty of ways, not just to me, but to others. She can judge quite harshly towards other people. But I forgive her for that and love her anyway. I may not have her on a pedastal any more, but she will always have (and deserve) a special place in my heart. I just wish she felt the same way about me.
Still, no use crying over the past and no use lamenting something I have the power to CHANGE.
This story's not over yet, and neither is hers.
Your quote applies MUCH MORE to my mother than my ex-friend. MUCH more.
