10-17-2019, 11:56 AM
Day 41 (0)
Insert Marcus Aurelius quote here
One idea I simply cannot escape is how stoic I've become. And it's not only about being outcome independent, that one goes back to at least my first LTU 5 run. No, I;m talking about acceptance of my circumstances and event that are happening around me.
Now, by being stoic I don't mean taking hits and not hitting back. I'd call it being fatalist or simply dumb. Stoicism for me is about acceptance and understanding FROM WHICH arise drive to change things. Think about Gladiator where Russel Crowe accepts what has happened but still strives towards revenge, just not stupidly. I seem to remember quote something in the lines of "I'm already dead, it's just a matter of how I die." That's stoicism for me right there.
I don't remember if that was while my father was in coma of soon after he died but I was listening to Marcus Aurelius' Meditations. They did not do much for me back then but still the spirit survives. And now that I have (in some part at least) dealt with my emotional problems I see how stoic I've become.
For example I was talking about how life seem to throw rocks at my feet some time ago. I used to be angry because of this, blaming the Universe for impeding me. Now I recognize these as my own faults or simply coincidences but always as an opportunity to learn. Fool me once...
Anyhow I had this huge problem yesterday at work. Everything was working fine but we expected something else and we didn't know how to get the desired effect. I've spend half of the day working on this and getting nowhere. Today I went to work stoic style, not worrying about yesterday's failures. I checked some basic assumptions, got an idea and it worked perfectly! Were I to worry I'd probably miss it, instead I tried something new without much worry and I got what I wanted.
In moments like that I do love my life.
Insert Marcus Aurelius quote here
One idea I simply cannot escape is how stoic I've become. And it's not only about being outcome independent, that one goes back to at least my first LTU 5 run. No, I;m talking about acceptance of my circumstances and event that are happening around me.
Now, by being stoic I don't mean taking hits and not hitting back. I'd call it being fatalist or simply dumb. Stoicism for me is about acceptance and understanding FROM WHICH arise drive to change things. Think about Gladiator where Russel Crowe accepts what has happened but still strives towards revenge, just not stupidly. I seem to remember quote something in the lines of "I'm already dead, it's just a matter of how I die." That's stoicism for me right there.
I don't remember if that was while my father was in coma of soon after he died but I was listening to Marcus Aurelius' Meditations. They did not do much for me back then but still the spirit survives. And now that I have (in some part at least) dealt with my emotional problems I see how stoic I've become.
For example I was talking about how life seem to throw rocks at my feet some time ago. I used to be angry because of this, blaming the Universe for impeding me. Now I recognize these as my own faults or simply coincidences but always as an opportunity to learn. Fool me once...
Anyhow I had this huge problem yesterday at work. Everything was working fine but we expected something else and we didn't know how to get the desired effect. I've spend half of the day working on this and getting nowhere. Today I went to work stoic style, not worrying about yesterday's failures. I checked some basic assumptions, got an idea and it worked perfectly! Were I to worry I'd probably miss it, instead I tried something new without much worry and I got what I wanted.
In moments like that I do love my life.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
