10-14-2019, 05:03 PM
Not much to report on the outside as i've been staying at home these past 4 days to heal from that infection. It's going pretty swiftly, and hopefully I'll be up and running on Wednesday, and then will be able to get back to bardic practice on Friday. I did skip Hot Lacanian Action tonight though, as I did not feel comfortable going there coughing and farting this much. 
(And these are very smelly, antibiotic farts). Whenever I do go out for an hour or two to get some fresh air I'm noticing DMSI-related reactions and such, but nothing to write home about as of yet.
There is quite a lot of movement internally, though. F. in. tonight I'm totally venting out a *whole lot* of anger directed at women which has always been there (and has been accruing for quite a bit of time now), but for some reason some parts of me considered anathema and/or taboo to express in any way. F. in. I found myself actually yelling out loud, to myself, "how the fuck can anyone even think of treating another person like this?! Just as a fucking *move*! Disgusting" and such. Out of the blue. Must have been a reaction to something going on under the hood, as otherwise I was engrossed in reading some stuff on the Internets.
The above also did appear to have some positive effect, though, but I don't think I'll be describing it in much detail.
A lot more "internal movement" apart from the above occurring as well, but there's so much of it I do not recall all of the details. Also, I think the program's designed to make it all as smooth as possible, so it feels like it's happening "under the radar" a lot.
Out of other thing, I remember having a dream yesterday, as I was listening to DMSI (I tend to take a nap while I'm listening to it, for an hour or two), and it actually featured... Shannon!
From what I remember, we were engaged in playing some sort of 4X computer game over the Internetz (looked like Dominions, but browser-based and with higher production values), and the whole game ended with Shannon winning after turtling up with some sort of weird gimmicky playstyle that no one had any hard counter to (better yet - I remember looking through my list of units for a counter, and remembered it being there somewhere, but it seemed to have *disappeared*, lol). I woke up then with a frustrated feeling, lol.
Maybe I'll play some Dominions since I'm stuck most of the day at home, farting into my pillows anyway...
(And these are very smelly, antibiotic farts). Whenever I do go out for an hour or two to get some fresh air I'm noticing DMSI-related reactions and such, but nothing to write home about as of yet.There is quite a lot of movement internally, though. F. in. tonight I'm totally venting out a *whole lot* of anger directed at women which has always been there (and has been accruing for quite a bit of time now), but for some reason some parts of me considered anathema and/or taboo to express in any way. F. in. I found myself actually yelling out loud, to myself, "how the fuck can anyone even think of treating another person like this?! Just as a fucking *move*! Disgusting" and such. Out of the blue. Must have been a reaction to something going on under the hood, as otherwise I was engrossed in reading some stuff on the Internets.
The above also did appear to have some positive effect, though, but I don't think I'll be describing it in much detail.
A lot more "internal movement" apart from the above occurring as well, but there's so much of it I do not recall all of the details. Also, I think the program's designed to make it all as smooth as possible, so it feels like it's happening "under the radar" a lot.
Out of other thing, I remember having a dream yesterday, as I was listening to DMSI (I tend to take a nap while I'm listening to it, for an hour or two), and it actually featured... Shannon!
From what I remember, we were engaged in playing some sort of 4X computer game over the Internetz (looked like Dominions, but browser-based and with higher production values), and the whole game ended with Shannon winning after turtling up with some sort of weird gimmicky playstyle that no one had any hard counter to (better yet - I remember looking through my list of units for a counter, and remembered it being there somewhere, but it seemed to have *disappeared*, lol). I woke up then with a frustrated feeling, lol. Maybe I'll play some Dominions since I'm stuck most of the day at home, farting into my pillows anyway...
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
