09-26-2019, 11:10 AM
Day 20 (0)
I haven't been posting in a while, part because I am busy and part because I feel little bit anxious. I'm doing fine, just not as fine as I'd hope.
Recently I've noticed something very worrisome. For the past half a year I felt like I can't do wrong. Sure, I can and did do mistakes, were ignorant and things like that. But these were either very minor or ended up benefiting me. My intuitions was on the highest alert and was helping me all the damn time.
No though I make a lot of mistakes. And not a minor ones, but ones costing me or these close to me either hour or so of precious time or mild anger and argument. Nothing major, nothing catastrophic. But there are these mistakes.
Where they come from? They come from my intuition. I've learnt to follow it and it starts failing me. Not so long ago I would do things because they felt right. And I was gaining a lot from it. Now I do this, I make choices based on intuition and I have to pay for it.
And again, these are not major things. But what if one day I'll make major mistake based on intuition alone? Let's hope it won't happen. And what if I will stop trusting my gut instinct? That might be even worse.
I haven't been posting in a while, part because I am busy and part because I feel little bit anxious. I'm doing fine, just not as fine as I'd hope.
Recently I've noticed something very worrisome. For the past half a year I felt like I can't do wrong. Sure, I can and did do mistakes, were ignorant and things like that. But these were either very minor or ended up benefiting me. My intuitions was on the highest alert and was helping me all the damn time.
No though I make a lot of mistakes. And not a minor ones, but ones costing me or these close to me either hour or so of precious time or mild anger and argument. Nothing major, nothing catastrophic. But there are these mistakes.
Where they come from? They come from my intuition. I've learnt to follow it and it starts failing me. Not so long ago I would do things because they felt right. And I was gaining a lot from it. Now I do this, I make choices based on intuition and I have to pay for it.
And again, these are not major things. But what if one day I'll make major mistake based on intuition alone? Let's hope it won't happen. And what if I will stop trusting my gut instinct? That might be even worse.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
