09-14-2019, 11:59 AM
Day 8 (0)
Effortlessness
I have a confession to make. I was wrong. I thought things would be different, easier than they really are. I was perhaps too vain, certainly proud and too confident. Maybe the past effortless of effort made me believe in an illusion that I can do more than I can.
Or at least what I can do effortlessly.
You see, my first run of LTU was mostly a blast, I made enough praise of it already. However following what is effortless and gaining the profits from it won't cut it now. This past week was pretty crappy for me. It wasn't bad by my usual standards but it was terrible by first LTU standards.
Huge part of this issue is that I have changed my priorities for this one. And maybe I need some adjustments to my mindset. But mostly it's because I got lazy. I have to get my mojo back. Remember my diatribe about how I listen to music? I'm in the "one song on repeat" phase now. This is not a good sign.
What I all comes down to is that I have to put myself together and do some work using my strong will. In other words I have to force myself to do things consciously, things that are not effortless. I can do it, I know I can. Again, it's about change of mindset and bursting this bubble of effortlessness.
I will do one habit, one goal at the time. I will make a list and I will check it twice but surely I will follow it. Most importantly I have to learn to follow stricter day schedule and get back to my pre-trips habits like meditation. What it gave me was I have learnt a lot about myself. But perhaps not enough.
What makes it all the harder is the season. I loathe autumn. Shorter and shorter days are killing me, I have proven without a shadow of a doubt connection between autumn and depressing thoughts in myself. October and November have always been hardest months for me. Winter is not that bad as by that time you are used to only a couple hours of sunlight per day.
So, unlike I thought previously, this is going to be a bumpy ride. This is not gonna be simple and effortless. I'll be probably be able to do less than I hoped. Buuuuuuuut it's not an excuse. I might be not as strong as I was in spring but I still have the same resolve. Otherwise I would simply stop listening to LTU and call it a day. There'll always be some reason to run other sub and run from the problems.
Fly, raven, fly. Burn, fire, burn. Arise, word, arise. And work destiny!
Effortlessness
I have a confession to make. I was wrong. I thought things would be different, easier than they really are. I was perhaps too vain, certainly proud and too confident. Maybe the past effortless of effort made me believe in an illusion that I can do more than I can.
Or at least what I can do effortlessly.
You see, my first run of LTU was mostly a blast, I made enough praise of it already. However following what is effortless and gaining the profits from it won't cut it now. This past week was pretty crappy for me. It wasn't bad by my usual standards but it was terrible by first LTU standards.
Huge part of this issue is that I have changed my priorities for this one. And maybe I need some adjustments to my mindset. But mostly it's because I got lazy. I have to get my mojo back. Remember my diatribe about how I listen to music? I'm in the "one song on repeat" phase now. This is not a good sign.
What I all comes down to is that I have to put myself together and do some work using my strong will. In other words I have to force myself to do things consciously, things that are not effortless. I can do it, I know I can. Again, it's about change of mindset and bursting this bubble of effortlessness.
I will do one habit, one goal at the time. I will make a list and I will check it twice but surely I will follow it. Most importantly I have to learn to follow stricter day schedule and get back to my pre-trips habits like meditation. What it gave me was I have learnt a lot about myself. But perhaps not enough.
What makes it all the harder is the season. I loathe autumn. Shorter and shorter days are killing me, I have proven without a shadow of a doubt connection between autumn and depressing thoughts in myself. October and November have always been hardest months for me. Winter is not that bad as by that time you are used to only a couple hours of sunlight per day.
So, unlike I thought previously, this is going to be a bumpy ride. This is not gonna be simple and effortless. I'll be probably be able to do less than I hoped. Buuuuuuuut it's not an excuse. I might be not as strong as I was in spring but I still have the same resolve. Otherwise I would simply stop listening to LTU and call it a day. There'll always be some reason to run other sub and run from the problems.
Fly, raven, fly. Burn, fire, burn. Arise, word, arise. And work destiny!
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
