08-19-2019, 03:04 PM
Money
There is something I didn't share with you although perhaps I should have but, like it's often case with me, I wanted to make sure things will work out for me. So... LTU paid itself for me. I was supposed to as it has "Ultra Success/Luck Maximizer" in itself but damn, I didn't expect that.
How did this happen? It happened because Lufthansa screwed up something and my flight to Japan came late. What's funny is it did not complicate any of my plans, if anything it shortened time wasted on waiting as we were scheduled way ahead of time. So it scored me 600 euro which is more than 600 dollars I paid for LTU. Hurrah!
However, now that I have mentioned it I have finally opened the Pandora's Box of "What Mystic thinks about money". I have avoided this topic for a long time and for a good reason. Because I am extremely conflicted on the subject.
I grew up in a relatively poor family. Due to upmost efforts of my parents I have never experienced hunger or being cold at night, but up until recently I've never had newest electronics, original clothes, we never ate at restaurants etc. You get it, a decent life but not fireworks. This taught me respect for money, I am not someone who spends money easily and I always save some just in case.
Now that I have transitioned from lower to middle class (or so I tell myself) I earn quite a lot, I have everything I need and more and I can afford things I simply want out of a whim. So I am more than sustainable right now.
But even still when I think about my future I come to conclusion how great it would be if I won million dollars or something like that at the lottery. One reason for it is that I'd love to have a couple of quite expensive things I can't afford or I'm to stingy to spend my savings on. You know, sports car, house in the woods, 5k gaming rig, things like that. Do I need these to be happy? Hell no. But there is part of me who wants these.
But I think deeper thing is me being scared for my security. I believe, falsely, that money buys security. If economy collapses and we burn your bills to keep us warm at night this cash will be worthless. Buy my reasoning goes that I would not be fearful of loosing my job. I love my job, I do what I love and it pays more than well. But I think that in a perfect world I would not do it for money and simply as a hobby. In other words I would continue working but purely for fun and not to pay my bills and buy food.
I believe money is a trap. It cannot buy you happiness. If anything it's easier to find truly happy poor person than rich person. But if are not obsessed and you know when to say "enough" money can buy you peace of mind. And this is why I want to be rich.
The question in my head remains - should I then press my luck and play at the lottery? My answer for now is that I do not know. I think I'll try it a couple of times in the future. I need to give my luck a chance. But I cannot live as if than potential win will buy me happiness I cannot otherwise afford.
There is something I didn't share with you although perhaps I should have but, like it's often case with me, I wanted to make sure things will work out for me. So... LTU paid itself for me. I was supposed to as it has "Ultra Success/Luck Maximizer" in itself but damn, I didn't expect that.
How did this happen? It happened because Lufthansa screwed up something and my flight to Japan came late. What's funny is it did not complicate any of my plans, if anything it shortened time wasted on waiting as we were scheduled way ahead of time. So it scored me 600 euro which is more than 600 dollars I paid for LTU. Hurrah!
However, now that I have mentioned it I have finally opened the Pandora's Box of "What Mystic thinks about money". I have avoided this topic for a long time and for a good reason. Because I am extremely conflicted on the subject.
I grew up in a relatively poor family. Due to upmost efforts of my parents I have never experienced hunger or being cold at night, but up until recently I've never had newest electronics, original clothes, we never ate at restaurants etc. You get it, a decent life but not fireworks. This taught me respect for money, I am not someone who spends money easily and I always save some just in case.
Now that I have transitioned from lower to middle class (or so I tell myself) I earn quite a lot, I have everything I need and more and I can afford things I simply want out of a whim. So I am more than sustainable right now.
But even still when I think about my future I come to conclusion how great it would be if I won million dollars or something like that at the lottery. One reason for it is that I'd love to have a couple of quite expensive things I can't afford or I'm to stingy to spend my savings on. You know, sports car, house in the woods, 5k gaming rig, things like that. Do I need these to be happy? Hell no. But there is part of me who wants these.
But I think deeper thing is me being scared for my security. I believe, falsely, that money buys security. If economy collapses and we burn your bills to keep us warm at night this cash will be worthless. Buy my reasoning goes that I would not be fearful of loosing my job. I love my job, I do what I love and it pays more than well. But I think that in a perfect world I would not do it for money and simply as a hobby. In other words I would continue working but purely for fun and not to pay my bills and buy food.
I believe money is a trap. It cannot buy you happiness. If anything it's easier to find truly happy poor person than rich person. But if are not obsessed and you know when to say "enough" money can buy you peace of mind. And this is why I want to be rich.
The question in my head remains - should I then press my luck and play at the lottery? My answer for now is that I do not know. I think I'll try it a couple of times in the future. I need to give my luck a chance. But I cannot live as if than potential win will buy me happiness I cannot otherwise afford.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
