Journey to a Better Life!

[Tiesto]

End of Week 8 Report

I had the interview for the real estate agent company, and unfortunately what they offered me is quite disappointing, the marketing manager who interviewed me (who will be my future boss if I accept the job) is kind of shady as well, I asked a lot of questions, and he was always giving me vague answers like he’s trying to hide things from me.

This latest event makes me feel frustrated, deep inside I don’t want to settle less than what makes me happy (TLAM has this programming also embedded in it which I’m definitely feeling), but at the same time I’m feeling needy for a job, I’m feeling desperate for a chance to make money and turn back around my difficult financial situation.

Quite a dilemma that I’m going through at the moment, if I accepted the job, with the low amount basic salary that they offered me there is definitely a risk of running out of money before end of the month if I don’t make a sales quickly, but even if I make a sale, the commission percentage is still so low, another problem is that I have to move out of town, to a place I’ve never been before, with no one that I know, it will be quite hard to ask for assistance in case of emergency. There is this big fear inside of me, that this new job opportunity will be costing me more than if I just stay in survival mode in my home town.

I don’t feel this is the right job for me, but if I don’t do something soon I don’t know if I will get another chance. The guy said I have a week to consider.

I hope something better will come along, and come as soon as possible, I’m constantly looking for another opportunity as well, consulting with my good friends, and looking around the internet, but at this moment, my situation is looking hopeless.

Another thing I'd like to add, since I've been sleeping with my earphones, my dream are more vivid, and I have been dreaming that I own a fantastic multi-million dollar home, located beside a river channel leading to the sea. It could be the effect of this statement here "I now frequently and vividly imagine myself having already achieved unlimited wealth, abundance and success." from TLAM sub.

This statement here "I now always wake up early in the day and spend my day as productively and efficiently as I possibly can." also might be the trigger for me to start looking for some sleep aid, to enhance my sleep, get better rest, and wake as fresh as possible so that I can accomplish that statement more easily.

It seems that the effects I'm getting are coming from TLAM, I have not felt anything from BASE yet.