Well, its one thing to stay cool, another is to have boundaries and show it. Lately its like a massive shittest storm in my life, and yes, I know it was teasing from their side, but still, calling it out once and for all when told them clearly I was out was a no-go to me. Its also not healthy to "shrug it off" while not being okay with it imo. Have tried that and it resulted in disaster.
For me, the "shrug it off" was rooted in fear this time. Shrug it off dont show, that kinda stuff. Being aloof in that context/pretending to be cool is plain stupid imo. Voice it and dngaf. I didnt sougyt validation but expressed my not okayness with it. Realness. Authenticity instead of a "though guy" mask. I know what your hinting at tho, which I do agree with, loving life and what not, its great and amazing and more constant lately. To amazing to be fazed. Yet 2 days ago, like I said I was on edge and when I clearly told them I was out, only to be guiltripping as I made myself clear once more, is a simple matter of "start shit, get hit" Way different then the coolness of stage 1 AM6 first round.
For me, the "shrug it off" was rooted in fear this time. Shrug it off dont show, that kinda stuff. Being aloof in that context/pretending to be cool is plain stupid imo. Voice it and dngaf. I didnt sougyt validation but expressed my not okayness with it. Realness. Authenticity instead of a "though guy" mask. I know what your hinting at tho, which I do agree with, loving life and what not, its great and amazing and more constant lately. To amazing to be fazed. Yet 2 days ago, like I said I was on edge and when I clearly told them I was out, only to be guiltripping as I made myself clear once more, is a simple matter of "start shit, get hit" Way different then the coolness of stage 1 AM6 first round.
