2 days ago, I was with friends at the beach. I felt pretty much moody and general more on edge. Eventually I told quits, to cool down, no longer interested. Now, as I went to my bag, get some drinks, the guy kicked the ball and playfully insulted me. I exploded, I was about to rip his head off ( feeling more agressive last few days ) I literally told him off harshly. Ofcourse he went on the "your overreacting/chill out tour" it has set something in motion internally. Getting angry, agressive, let them know is important.
If this lead to fall out, its fine. It showed again attachment. It felt good but escalates quickly.
Aloof is one thing, realness and ripping verbally a one is another. I didnt care for another response, this was pure agression and statement. The whole "we're friends" thing doesnt cut it. Subtle jabs and laughing it off is manipulation/program training of the person 101.
Needless to say, agression is good. Lettin em know is important. Boundaries are important. No-one has privilege to treat me bad, no-one, even if we are friends.
There is power in being able to be on your own and not needin anyone.
Im also realizing im having a seething hatred for humanity. Might be an individualisation of myself kind of thing, but yes, I have it.
If this lead to fall out, its fine. It showed again attachment. It felt good but escalates quickly.
Aloof is one thing, realness and ripping verbally a one is another. I didnt care for another response, this was pure agression and statement. The whole "we're friends" thing doesnt cut it. Subtle jabs and laughing it off is manipulation/program training of the person 101.
Needless to say, agression is good. Lettin em know is important. Boundaries are important. No-one has privilege to treat me bad, no-one, even if we are friends.
There is power in being able to be on your own and not needin anyone.
Im also realizing im having a seething hatred for humanity. Might be an individualisation of myself kind of thing, but yes, I have it.
