05-26-2012, 04:56 AM
Day 163 of FYPJ,day 36 of RNW
I have noticed that after RNW most of the time I'm a lot more clear
headed and with a very quiet mind.It's a feeling like a lot of negative stuff
is not there anymore.
I have noticed I'm being too hard on myself.I push myself into every challenge I can find in order to improve faster and sometimes think I'm not improving fast enough.It's also the situation in my life at the moment.I seem to looking and searching and can't find a good job to get better income and become more independent,get a car and whatever.
Currently I'm quite frustrated about lots of stuff.I got more no responses
from work places than everyone else I know and I keep trying.
In the skills I'm working on I keep challenging myself and keep learning,
getting out of my comfort zone constantly.It causes me to feel sometimes
that I'm not good enough.And I know it's not rational and
I have to go through it to get better.
I went to a job fair and went to every company there with hardly any results.Even one I had a short interview there and it went really well resulted in nothing.
I am considering changing FYPJ to something else.
Also somehow from RNW I'm better socially and with better sense of
humor and more relaxed with people.I'm stopping sometimes to enjoy
small beautiful moments in life and enjoy them.
I have noticed that after RNW most of the time I'm a lot more clear
headed and with a very quiet mind.It's a feeling like a lot of negative stuff
is not there anymore.
I have noticed I'm being too hard on myself.I push myself into every challenge I can find in order to improve faster and sometimes think I'm not improving fast enough.It's also the situation in my life at the moment.I seem to looking and searching and can't find a good job to get better income and become more independent,get a car and whatever.
Currently I'm quite frustrated about lots of stuff.I got more no responses
from work places than everyone else I know and I keep trying.
In the skills I'm working on I keep challenging myself and keep learning,
getting out of my comfort zone constantly.It causes me to feel sometimes
that I'm not good enough.And I know it's not rational and
I have to go through it to get better.
I went to a job fair and went to every company there with hardly any results.Even one I had a short interview there and it went really well resulted in nothing.
I am considering changing FYPJ to something else.
Also somehow from RNW I'm better socially and with better sense of
humor and more relaxed with people.I'm stopping sometimes to enjoy
small beautiful moments in life and enjoy them.
