06-24-2019, 03:36 AM
Day 220
I am now sleeping in another room partly due to baby getting up in the middle of the night and always looking from mother to get her to sleep and also because I want to listen to the sub at night. I have been playing the sub at night on my mobile phone in ultrasonic format.
I have not noticed much change but lets see for the next couple of days. For my business, I talked to my partner about 4 -5 days back for some small changes / task for him to do. I know he must have done it, but I am not asking him, just delaying it. What I have done is , looking for other small businesses on the internet and start exploring them. This is a pattern I have noticed in the past. I started some business online, got some initial success, abandoned it and then started something else. Always jumping after initial positive results. Fear of success I guess.
A few times I talked to gurus / mentors in the relevant field and they were surprised to see I am not successful despite knowing lot of stuff. But the common reason they seem to say is, I never made a real effort. To date in addition to my job, I have around 4 small and 1 big business running around in which I am not working as I feel I should be doing. Except for the 1 big business which I launched in December and which is also the target of USLM, I am not working actively on other businesses. Even on the big business I am just nudging it forward.
I was also thinking about some of my habits from early life. I have got around 20 shirts in new condition some branded some non branded, some expensive and some normal. I keep them in my wardrobe and everytime I need a new shirt I always take out the one in the middle order in terms of price / quality. I am also saving the best and expensive ones. I get this feeling that once I use this shirt, the good stuff will be over. I hope it makes sense what I am trying to to explain here. This is a similar behaviour with other stuff in my life. I am always saving the good stuff, living life on normal mediocre stuff. When I think about it, it feels like once I wear this and it is finished, I will go down the cliff. It's like all the good stuff will end. I have to keep some good stuff so then I always have the feeling that the good stuff is coming in the future. I always buy the perfect / ideal stuff. I am like those women who will go to a hundred stores and look around for months & ages and then buy something.
I am now sleeping in another room partly due to baby getting up in the middle of the night and always looking from mother to get her to sleep and also because I want to listen to the sub at night. I have been playing the sub at night on my mobile phone in ultrasonic format.
I have not noticed much change but lets see for the next couple of days. For my business, I talked to my partner about 4 -5 days back for some small changes / task for him to do. I know he must have done it, but I am not asking him, just delaying it. What I have done is , looking for other small businesses on the internet and start exploring them. This is a pattern I have noticed in the past. I started some business online, got some initial success, abandoned it and then started something else. Always jumping after initial positive results. Fear of success I guess.
A few times I talked to gurus / mentors in the relevant field and they were surprised to see I am not successful despite knowing lot of stuff. But the common reason they seem to say is, I never made a real effort. To date in addition to my job, I have around 4 small and 1 big business running around in which I am not working as I feel I should be doing. Except for the 1 big business which I launched in December and which is also the target of USLM, I am not working actively on other businesses. Even on the big business I am just nudging it forward.
I was also thinking about some of my habits from early life. I have got around 20 shirts in new condition some branded some non branded, some expensive and some normal. I keep them in my wardrobe and everytime I need a new shirt I always take out the one in the middle order in terms of price / quality. I am also saving the best and expensive ones. I get this feeling that once I use this shirt, the good stuff will be over. I hope it makes sense what I am trying to to explain here. This is a similar behaviour with other stuff in my life. I am always saving the good stuff, living life on normal mediocre stuff. When I think about it, it feels like once I wear this and it is finished, I will go down the cliff. It's like all the good stuff will end. I have to keep some good stuff so then I always have the feeling that the good stuff is coming in the future. I always buy the perfect / ideal stuff. I am like those women who will go to a hundred stores and look around for months & ages and then buy something.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
