06-14-2019, 09:57 AM
Day 53 (0)
I'm back from the conference. It was... something else. Don't get me wrong, it was great, but lots had happened and I need a day or two to process everything, take some notes and then give you report on what happened. And trust me, it will be worthwhile read.
What I will talk about today is a series of events which may or may not culminate into something interesting. However time might be of the essence so I'm processing it right now, on this very forum. More interesting bits are in bold as I guess sparsely anyone will want to read this whole essay.
So, obviously, there were a couple of nice girls at the conference. One of them caught my particular attention. She was never really alone (it's not entirely true, but at time she was alone I had things to do) but I was passing her often here and there. At one point I remembered I used to try doing "remote arousal" things (with mixed successes) and out of boredom I tried it on her while sitting next to her doing a lecture. She responded very well, her legs were moving like crazy.
Still, nothing really happened. I was thinking about what's going on before sleep while listening to LTU on my headphones. I was thinking about Will and manifestations. I convinced myself that I really, really want to get to know her better. She's pretty and seems nice, but you never know how a person is before you meet them better. I wanted a chance to get to know her. A chance.
Next day there was a banquet, you know, with expensive food, people wearing fancy clothes and some music for dancing. There is more story to it, however me and my group seated near her group. After a dinner and beginning of the party part of the banquet I say she sits alone and is almost crying. I was too ashamed or scared or whatever to go up to her, but I asked my female colleague sitting next to me and who knew her a bit if she knows what's going on with her. We decided to approach her and cheer her up. Quite quickly my colleague left, but I stayed and I talked with that girl. She wouldn't tell me what's wrong, but we talked a little, drunk some wine and went to dance for 2 songs. And she started to smile! I had the balls to approach her and then I managed to cheer her up! WTF!
That would be all great and good, drunk with wine Mystic is playing alpha. I think that, in my entire life, I was only 2 times so much alpha. The first one was when I met my first girlfriend. That was what, 3.5 years ago I believe. And that was BEFORE I was using DMSI. So, only before and after DMSI I am able to have so successes approaching women. Interesting.
Great achievement, but what next? Of course I again started meditating like crazy. The next day (yesterday in fact) I went to the Karaoke party. Normally I wouldn't have gone there. None of my friends was going there. However, I got invitation from yet another girl which, I think, is friends with The Girl (I need to name her something I think...). And when I came to the party guess who was there... The Girl! I know, right? Again, we talked a bit, we drunk some beer. I forced her to come to the dance floor on two occasions I think, she enjoyed it but she seems shy so she wouldn't go out of her way to party.
Here we approach the end of the story. She was making photos and videos of the party. Obviously I asked her to send me those with me. She said she doesn't have facebook or anything like that (cause she deleted it, I admit it impresses me) be she will send me those via email. I have no idea when she sends me those, if ever, but even if the story ends at this very points I still enjoyed the experience with her. At any rate I have an idea what to do when she sends me these videos, chances of success are minuscule but so were before.
The thing is... I got what I wanted. What I really, truly wanted. I targeted a girl, I approached her, I had fun with her. What comes next, friendship, romance? This is the point where I'm not sure if I want it. What's more I don't even know if she has a boyfriend, probably not but who knows why she was crying. I wouldn't ask her as I was trying to be positive and easy-going, something I think I succeeded. On the other hand she live in another city, maybe 4 or 5 hours away. That would mean long-distance relationship, something I was always skeptical about, however it would allow me to "be with someone" with all the perk while staying "alone" with all its perks. Being alone, especially since LTU, made me so much stronger, but a the same time I'm not sure I would do so well if I were in close "let's see each other every day" kind of deal.
Chance is but a name for Law not recognized.
I'm back from the conference. It was... something else. Don't get me wrong, it was great, but lots had happened and I need a day or two to process everything, take some notes and then give you report on what happened. And trust me, it will be worthwhile read.
What I will talk about today is a series of events which may or may not culminate into something interesting. However time might be of the essence so I'm processing it right now, on this very forum. More interesting bits are in bold as I guess sparsely anyone will want to read this whole essay.
So, obviously, there were a couple of nice girls at the conference. One of them caught my particular attention. She was never really alone (it's not entirely true, but at time she was alone I had things to do) but I was passing her often here and there. At one point I remembered I used to try doing "remote arousal" things (with mixed successes) and out of boredom I tried it on her while sitting next to her doing a lecture. She responded very well, her legs were moving like crazy.
Still, nothing really happened. I was thinking about what's going on before sleep while listening to LTU on my headphones. I was thinking about Will and manifestations. I convinced myself that I really, really want to get to know her better. She's pretty and seems nice, but you never know how a person is before you meet them better. I wanted a chance to get to know her. A chance.
Next day there was a banquet, you know, with expensive food, people wearing fancy clothes and some music for dancing. There is more story to it, however me and my group seated near her group. After a dinner and beginning of the party part of the banquet I say she sits alone and is almost crying. I was too ashamed or scared or whatever to go up to her, but I asked my female colleague sitting next to me and who knew her a bit if she knows what's going on with her. We decided to approach her and cheer her up. Quite quickly my colleague left, but I stayed and I talked with that girl. She wouldn't tell me what's wrong, but we talked a little, drunk some wine and went to dance for 2 songs. And she started to smile! I had the balls to approach her and then I managed to cheer her up! WTF!
That would be all great and good, drunk with wine Mystic is playing alpha. I think that, in my entire life, I was only 2 times so much alpha. The first one was when I met my first girlfriend. That was what, 3.5 years ago I believe. And that was BEFORE I was using DMSI. So, only before and after DMSI I am able to have so successes approaching women. Interesting.
Great achievement, but what next? Of course I again started meditating like crazy. The next day (yesterday in fact) I went to the Karaoke party. Normally I wouldn't have gone there. None of my friends was going there. However, I got invitation from yet another girl which, I think, is friends with The Girl (I need to name her something I think...). And when I came to the party guess who was there... The Girl! I know, right? Again, we talked a bit, we drunk some beer. I forced her to come to the dance floor on two occasions I think, she enjoyed it but she seems shy so she wouldn't go out of her way to party.
Here we approach the end of the story. She was making photos and videos of the party. Obviously I asked her to send me those with me. She said she doesn't have facebook or anything like that (cause she deleted it, I admit it impresses me) be she will send me those via email. I have no idea when she sends me those, if ever, but even if the story ends at this very points I still enjoyed the experience with her. At any rate I have an idea what to do when she sends me these videos, chances of success are minuscule but so were before.
The thing is... I got what I wanted. What I really, truly wanted. I targeted a girl, I approached her, I had fun with her. What comes next, friendship, romance? This is the point where I'm not sure if I want it. What's more I don't even know if she has a boyfriend, probably not but who knows why she was crying. I wouldn't ask her as I was trying to be positive and easy-going, something I think I succeeded. On the other hand she live in another city, maybe 4 or 5 hours away. That would mean long-distance relationship, something I was always skeptical about, however it would allow me to "be with someone" with all the perk while staying "alone" with all its perks. Being alone, especially since LTU, made me so much stronger, but a the same time I'm not sure I would do so well if I were in close "let's see each other every day" kind of deal.
Chance is but a name for Law not recognized.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
