06-10-2019, 06:09 AM
Wanted to journal these experiences before I forgot, there may be more updates today. So leaving off from yesterday, I attended a dinner my Mother was hosting, because a Cousin I've never met came into town with his Fiancé and Son. Everything was pretty great, except for the fact that my Cousin's Fiancé kept giving me IOI's in front of everyone. I tried to play it off and even acted slightly more reserved than usual, after all, this is my Cousin's Fiancé and I've never even met the Man so I'd hate for his first memory of me to be flirting with his Woman. The most obvious IOI is she kept looking directly at me and staring 85% of the time she spoke and 99% of the time that she would laugh in order to make sure she had my attention...damn it lol. Won't lie about the fact I found her attractive too but no way I'd let myself act on it.
Eventually we all talked about what we do for a living, I mentioned my job but also that I'm looking to get into web development in the short-term. She was quick to mention that she works from home, managing a digital product project and started giving me pointers on how to network in the tech industry. She then asked for my Facebook and instantly added me so I could keep in touch in case I had "questions", which I'm thankful for but I know I'm gonna have to tread this one carefully. Once we left for the night, she was sure to turn to me, TWICE, and told me to be sure to keep in touch. Oh boy.
A couple hours later, after I got home, my ex wife called and apologized for her earlier disrespect again. I told her not to let it happen again and the apology was accepted. She then proceeded to keep talking in order to keep me on the phone, but the more I insisted on getting some rest for the night, the more she would find something else to talk about. She then proceeded to tease sexually since we were on FaceTime using IPhones and told me she was horny, and how great the sex has been between us lately. Once again, I thought to myself that maybe she's using both me and the dude she seems to have a crush on (dating) as "options"; whatever, in any case I finally went to bed.
Woke up this morning and used LTU "as needed" for the first time before work which kept my mood high. Everyone at the job seems friendlier than usual, and some people who I don't even speak to greeted me. One female coworker in particular who seems to act super shy when I'm around came into the break room to clock in. I was staring at the open doorway but as soon as she walked in, she locked eyes with me while I was on the phone with my Doctor's office. I actually stared her down and what happened next shocked me, my eyes started to scan her body, slowly and locked on to her vagina, all while she was still staring at me. Not only that, she actually slowed down the pace at which she walked, as if she wanted me to have time to take it all in. Can't believe I did that dumb s**t at work, she could've easily reported me for sexual harassment. FRM must be working better than I thought. Gonna have to be more conscious about how I speak and act going forward.
Eventually we all talked about what we do for a living, I mentioned my job but also that I'm looking to get into web development in the short-term. She was quick to mention that she works from home, managing a digital product project and started giving me pointers on how to network in the tech industry. She then asked for my Facebook and instantly added me so I could keep in touch in case I had "questions", which I'm thankful for but I know I'm gonna have to tread this one carefully. Once we left for the night, she was sure to turn to me, TWICE, and told me to be sure to keep in touch. Oh boy.
A couple hours later, after I got home, my ex wife called and apologized for her earlier disrespect again. I told her not to let it happen again and the apology was accepted. She then proceeded to keep talking in order to keep me on the phone, but the more I insisted on getting some rest for the night, the more she would find something else to talk about. She then proceeded to tease sexually since we were on FaceTime using IPhones and told me she was horny, and how great the sex has been between us lately. Once again, I thought to myself that maybe she's using both me and the dude she seems to have a crush on (dating) as "options"; whatever, in any case I finally went to bed.
Woke up this morning and used LTU "as needed" for the first time before work which kept my mood high. Everyone at the job seems friendlier than usual, and some people who I don't even speak to greeted me. One female coworker in particular who seems to act super shy when I'm around came into the break room to clock in. I was staring at the open doorway but as soon as she walked in, she locked eyes with me while I was on the phone with my Doctor's office. I actually stared her down and what happened next shocked me, my eyes started to scan her body, slowly and locked on to her vagina, all while she was still staring at me. Not only that, she actually slowed down the pace at which she walked, as if she wanted me to have time to take it all in. Can't believe I did that dumb s**t at work, she could've easily reported me for sexual harassment. FRM must be working better than I thought. Gonna have to be more conscious about how I speak and act going forward.
