06-06-2019, 02:24 PM
More internal changes;
I consciously realize how my eye contact ties in with confidence, self esteem etc. Its like a sort of absence/void inside. When im engaged in conversation it becomes better but im still avoidant at times. Its fear. Been questioning if fear of success is the same if not highly similar to fear of failure. Im realizing that right now. Physically im looking good, strong, and I know im of value and it can be a non issue, being comfortable in my sexual skin, confident in myself, and its all in my head, but im still getting self conscious at times. Like suddenly being thrown in the internal mess, like a shock effect.
Also, when im thinking of A, I notice an wall in the field of "its okay to want a girl you like" more stuff coming to light.
I consciously realize how my eye contact ties in with confidence, self esteem etc. Its like a sort of absence/void inside. When im engaged in conversation it becomes better but im still avoidant at times. Its fear. Been questioning if fear of success is the same if not highly similar to fear of failure. Im realizing that right now. Physically im looking good, strong, and I know im of value and it can be a non issue, being comfortable in my sexual skin, confident in myself, and its all in my head, but im still getting self conscious at times. Like suddenly being thrown in the internal mess, like a shock effect.
Also, when im thinking of A, I notice an wall in the field of "its okay to want a girl you like" more stuff coming to light.
