Mystic Life - LTU 5

[Mystic Pymp]

Oh, certainly, one is all and all is one. However my problem with idea of multiverse is that it invalidates idea of choice and free will. And even assuming We Are All One and that there is some kind of absolute, there is undoubtedly free will. I can only see idea of physical (as in "on this plane") multiverse is sense of potential. When you say there other versions of this reality and I am experiencing just one of them it makes my Will pretty meaningless and I consider my Will (for better or worse) my defining feature.

Nothing I said invalidates or even conflicts with free will.  It is through free will that this system operates, because it is with free will that you choose, every moment of every day, which possible reality your awareness moves into next.  So explain to me how this invalidates or conflicts with free will.

Ah, OK then. Like I said in my latest post "I can only see idea of physical (as in "on this plane") multiverse is sense of potential." I tend to think about idea of multiverse as it is said on stupid documentaries, where every time you make a decision or some quantum mambo jambo universe splits. This, for me, invalidates free will because given choice to go right or left I don't make a choice, simply there are two versions of me, one for each outcome. However, these realities being potential realities and moving to the next one (via your free will or otherwise) is perfectly fine.

Day 44 (0)

My optimist hit a brick wall yesterday as when I was working in the evening my results were crap. I love my job but it's almost unfair when there are million things that can go wrong and you have little in the way of knowing what might have actually gone wrong. Thankfully I applied all my focus on the topic and around 1AM I managed to get everything back in order. I've done the rest of the work I was supposed to do yesterday this morning and after that I went for a walk.

It might be far reaching, but in moments like that I think I almost experience something like inspiration, where I just have to focus and the right ideas come to me. Luck from LTU in action perhaps? In any other circumstances making this crap work would take me days, not one evening.

I'm losing weight left and right still. I said I wanted to slow down but in recent days I eat little, walk much and stress even more. Not counting at least 2kg of water I lost during the today's walk, this week alone I lost 2,5kg. That's way too much for me to be comfortable with. However, I don't feel tired or anything like that. At least not more than usual. So I don't think I'm malnourished or lack calories or anything like that.

What is really scary is what will happen after I get to my weight loss goal. Since I started I'm about 1/3 of the way there, which is amazing. By this rate I'll have my dream weight by the end of summer. However... my weight was always an excuse for me for a number of things. Sports, dating, even not buying new clothes. With this obstacle gone my life will change and I'll have to face my issues that I've been pushing for later all this time when I wanted to lose weight but quite lacked the will to do so.

Now I'm beginning to understand why past me didn't want to lose weight and felt comfortable additional kilograms.