06-03-2019, 05:47 AM
Day 42 (2)
“That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.” I think we all know that aphorism or at least its paraphrase. It was said by Nietsche, one of my favorite philosophers and one I have love-hate relationship with. I was thinking about this saying as my mother said it to me while I was complaining to her about my stress. She comforted me, saying it will do me good in the end and that I always stress out over things while everything turns out fine. And that's more or less true. My skin is thick (or at least I want to believe that) and I always have contingency plan over contingency plans.
If anything she was right. I woke up early (typically I need a couple of alarm clocks to wake me up cause I turn them off one by one), I went to work early, did what I set out to do and had some time to spare! This brought me to ease and I think I will simply relax this afternoon and evening, getting back to it tomorrow morning.
However... I don't like this saying. Its implications are startling to be honest. Pain makes you stronger, but also more bitter, tired, cynical. What people need is challenge, not pain or stress. Challenge is what makes me stronger. Pain is not challenge, it's punishment. On the other hand lack of pain does make people weak and lazy, but I think it comes down to lack of challenge and not lack of pain. Challenge is better friend with pain than pleasure.
Look at LTU. It's little more than a shortcut. Potentially everyone could achieve LTU goals by themselves. But it's a great aid and I want to use it to help me, encourage me and provide challenge while avoiding much pain it would otherwise bring. Did I ever say I love LTU?
Funny thing came to me as I saw that girl who motivated me to beat me NoFap record today. I almost feel like I'm in love with her, which is... unsettling? Here I am, going through Tinder while not really wanting a relationship. I feel like I'm falling in love in a girl which is taken and I wouldn't be able to be with her due to circumstances. And still I can't help but look at her and marvel at her smile and deep, dark eyes.
I need to meditate on this but what's happening I think is she reminds of a girl I was madly in love with 6 or 7 years ago. We never were together and I lost contact with her because I was pushing myself way to hard towards her. Still, she was the one setting me on the past of self-improvement I am right now. This new girl might be able to exert similar influence one me. And because of that I do hope she disappears from my life as soon as possible. Such influence is not a bad thing. It is however unhealthy when kept in the distance and she wouldn't even be aware of it.
“That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.” I think we all know that aphorism or at least its paraphrase. It was said by Nietsche, one of my favorite philosophers and one I have love-hate relationship with. I was thinking about this saying as my mother said it to me while I was complaining to her about my stress. She comforted me, saying it will do me good in the end and that I always stress out over things while everything turns out fine. And that's more or less true. My skin is thick (or at least I want to believe that) and I always have contingency plan over contingency plans.
If anything she was right. I woke up early (typically I need a couple of alarm clocks to wake me up cause I turn them off one by one), I went to work early, did what I set out to do and had some time to spare! This brought me to ease and I think I will simply relax this afternoon and evening, getting back to it tomorrow morning.
However... I don't like this saying. Its implications are startling to be honest. Pain makes you stronger, but also more bitter, tired, cynical. What people need is challenge, not pain or stress. Challenge is what makes me stronger. Pain is not challenge, it's punishment. On the other hand lack of pain does make people weak and lazy, but I think it comes down to lack of challenge and not lack of pain. Challenge is better friend with pain than pleasure.
Look at LTU. It's little more than a shortcut. Potentially everyone could achieve LTU goals by themselves. But it's a great aid and I want to use it to help me, encourage me and provide challenge while avoiding much pain it would otherwise bring. Did I ever say I love LTU?
Funny thing came to me as I saw that girl who motivated me to beat me NoFap record today. I almost feel like I'm in love with her, which is... unsettling? Here I am, going through Tinder while not really wanting a relationship. I feel like I'm falling in love in a girl which is taken and I wouldn't be able to be with her due to circumstances. And still I can't help but look at her and marvel at her smile and deep, dark eyes.
I need to meditate on this but what's happening I think is she reminds of a girl I was madly in love with 6 or 7 years ago. We never were together and I lost contact with her because I was pushing myself way to hard towards her. Still, she was the one setting me on the past of self-improvement I am right now. This new girl might be able to exert similar influence one me. And because of that I do hope she disappears from my life as soon as possible. Such influence is not a bad thing. It is however unhealthy when kept in the distance and she wouldn't even be aware of it.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
