05-27-2019, 10:27 AM
Day 35 (1)
It is done, with 10 days and 7 hours on record I masturbated on Sunday. And that's fine.
I thought for a bit how I want to word this post and I decided I want to be sincere. Could I have done better? Of course. But still it's a great achievement for me and with my current mindset I'm sure to push the limit even further.
Why did I do this? I think there are two reasons. The first on Saturday was tough and tiring day for me. Second one is after I beat my record I kind of lost the goal from my sight. When you run 5K, do you rush to the finish line or do you think "OK, one more kilometer that is"? My finish line was my record and when I beat it I became vulnerable. I tried to make 30 days my new goal, but it was way too distant goal and, at least in my imagination, unrealistic.
I don't want to become "that NoFap guy on LTU" so from now on I will only sparingly post about it on this journal. However, I will post my number of days in the brackets on the top of the post. This way I can stay honest without bringing the topic too much. Also I'll try to post more frequently, there is a lot to talk about (examples being: me continuously checking girls out, my weight loss progress, my work motivation, my nicotine and alcohol consumption, time management, interest in occult and much more) and I won't this journal to be a forum where I can share and discuss all these changes I notice.
It is done, with 10 days and 7 hours on record I masturbated on Sunday. And that's fine.
I thought for a bit how I want to word this post and I decided I want to be sincere. Could I have done better? Of course. But still it's a great achievement for me and with my current mindset I'm sure to push the limit even further.
Why did I do this? I think there are two reasons. The first on Saturday was tough and tiring day for me. Second one is after I beat my record I kind of lost the goal from my sight. When you run 5K, do you rush to the finish line or do you think "OK, one more kilometer that is"? My finish line was my record and when I beat it I became vulnerable. I tried to make 30 days my new goal, but it was way too distant goal and, at least in my imagination, unrealistic.
I don't want to become "that NoFap guy on LTU" so from now on I will only sparingly post about it on this journal. However, I will post my number of days in the brackets on the top of the post. This way I can stay honest without bringing the topic too much. Also I'll try to post more frequently, there is a lot to talk about (examples being: me continuously checking girls out, my weight loss progress, my work motivation, my nicotine and alcohol consumption, time management, interest in occult and much more) and I won't this journal to be a forum where I can share and discuss all these changes I notice.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
