05-24-2019, 10:55 AM
Day 32
Currently on day 9 of NoFap and still going strong. It's 1.5 days longer than my previous record broken during New Year resolution. I had some time to think about WHY I am managing to do this now.
Just so you know it's not all sunshine and rainbows. I want to masturbate and once I almost cried out of frustration. It really depends on the moment. However even at that moment desire not to do that was stronger.
External motivation is important, but not crucial. I don't think I'm gonna have any encounter worth saving my sexual energy for (like it was the case with that girl I mentioned before) and still I want to keep moving.
Benefits of NoFap you read about here and there are pretty meaningless for me. You know, things like more energy or better concentration. It would be great to have these but this is not the reason. If anything I am curious if I get any and how it will synergize with LTU and other changes happening in my life right now.
For sake of curiosity and challenge (and stupidity) I went ahead and watched some porn at my porn sites "to catch up". I got aroused but that porn got simply boring for me. Like I was questioning at that point why did I ever fap to that! Obviously if I started masturbating my brain would switch and I'd go past the point of no return back to the starting point, but staying on this side I was just... confused.
The most important thing right now is simply challenging myself. The great plus of me keeping account of my habits in the past months is I can follow my progress and at this moment I'm mostly curious how far I can go with this. Challenging myself was great part of my self improvement in recent weeks and it works great for NoFap. I was worried that after beating my record I would have no goal but now every next day is a goal and I think I'm gonna keep on going strong for at least a couple of days.
Currently on day 9 of NoFap and still going strong. It's 1.5 days longer than my previous record broken during New Year resolution. I had some time to think about WHY I am managing to do this now.
Just so you know it's not all sunshine and rainbows. I want to masturbate and once I almost cried out of frustration. It really depends on the moment. However even at that moment desire not to do that was stronger.
External motivation is important, but not crucial. I don't think I'm gonna have any encounter worth saving my sexual energy for (like it was the case with that girl I mentioned before) and still I want to keep moving.
Benefits of NoFap you read about here and there are pretty meaningless for me. You know, things like more energy or better concentration. It would be great to have these but this is not the reason. If anything I am curious if I get any and how it will synergize with LTU and other changes happening in my life right now.
For sake of curiosity and challenge (and stupidity) I went ahead and watched some porn at my porn sites "to catch up". I got aroused but that porn got simply boring for me. Like I was questioning at that point why did I ever fap to that! Obviously if I started masturbating my brain would switch and I'd go past the point of no return back to the starting point, but staying on this side I was just... confused.
The most important thing right now is simply challenging myself. The great plus of me keeping account of my habits in the past months is I can follow my progress and at this moment I'm mostly curious how far I can go with this. Challenging myself was great part of my self improvement in recent weeks and it works great for NoFap. I was worried that after beating my record I would have no goal but now every next day is a goal and I think I'm gonna keep on going strong for at least a couple of days.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
