05-22-2019, 01:00 PM
(05-22-2019, 11:50 AM)Kol Wrote: Layout looking slick. Good stuff @"Cyanide"
Anyways, im having random memories popping up, from the times when my ptsd symptoms went through the roof. Also from my post molly roll 5(?) Years ago, when I went suicidal for a week and trippin my balls off. When I dissociated hard. Memories of me moving out of home, while being still very triggered back then.
Now, Im seeing the gratitude in it. Its weird. I look with a sense of fondness back at it. Even tho it was totally shit, hell, terror back then, surreal in a way, dissociated in a huge fog of surrealness, it was pretty amazing. The little things stand out.
I too have had my times of dissociation so I know where you are coming from. That is really some horrifying stuff. But still, life is always amazing underneath, even when your pain is feeling overwhelming. Have you read the book "mans search for meaning"? It's about a phychiatrist who describe his time in Auschwitz. Interesting read.
