05-09-2019, 06:20 AM
Day 17
I am seriously being pushed by the sub into questioning who I really am and what I truly want. I try to meditate on that but looking for the answer is not an easy task. I short I'm very conflicted on that. I may or may not write an essay on the topic in the future but in short I feel like there are 3 options:
I am seriously being pushed by the sub into questioning who I really am and what I truly want. I try to meditate on that but looking for the answer is not an easy task. I short I'm very conflicted on that. I may or may not write an essay on the topic in the future but in short I feel like there are 3 options:
- Old self, with all my flaws. Obviously with some self-development as I go but overall comfortable with myself.
- New, "perfect" self with as many flaws removed. The problem is in my imagination this person feels like a robot and is ultimately directionless.
- Some kind of synthesis of the two. I think the sub is pushing me in this direction, but I cannot clearly visualize what that would be exactly.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
