05-08-2019, 06:05 AM
3rd break Day 2:
Saw Avengers: Endgame yesterday. Thoroughly enjoyed the movie and the company of my friends.
*Spoiler Alert*: I was profoundly effected by a statement that Thor's Mother made when he went back in time and she was still alive. Thor had been depressed for years after losing in Infinity Wars. Long story short, he felt like a failure. His Mother told him "Everyone fails at who they're supposed to be, what matters is that you do the best you can with who you are"...or something along those lines. I felt like she was speaking directly to me. For so long, I fought between the person I wanted to be, felt I needed to be, and who I actually was. It feels like I'm becoming someone new altogether and that's why I still don't completely know who I've become, and yet I still feel more secure and empowered than ever before.
In other news, I'm not sure why I was even born, but what I know is that after 28 years, I've actually chosen a life purpose for myself. This is huge because for so long, I went after what I thought was acceptable by society. When I saw the fact that societally programmed goals were not the answer I sought, I became unmotivated and kept hearing that you should "follow your passion and bliss". Only problem is I had no idea what that was until now. I finally have a sense of direction, and could also potentially turn it into a business. Haven't even gotten through a complete run of LTU yet but I'm developing faster than ever, incredible.
Saw Avengers: Endgame yesterday. Thoroughly enjoyed the movie and the company of my friends.
*Spoiler Alert*: I was profoundly effected by a statement that Thor's Mother made when he went back in time and she was still alive. Thor had been depressed for years after losing in Infinity Wars. Long story short, he felt like a failure. His Mother told him "Everyone fails at who they're supposed to be, what matters is that you do the best you can with who you are"...or something along those lines. I felt like she was speaking directly to me. For so long, I fought between the person I wanted to be, felt I needed to be, and who I actually was. It feels like I'm becoming someone new altogether and that's why I still don't completely know who I've become, and yet I still feel more secure and empowered than ever before.
In other news, I'm not sure why I was even born, but what I know is that after 28 years, I've actually chosen a life purpose for myself. This is huge because for so long, I went after what I thought was acceptable by society. When I saw the fact that societally programmed goals were not the answer I sought, I became unmotivated and kept hearing that you should "follow your passion and bliss". Only problem is I had no idea what that was until now. I finally have a sense of direction, and could also potentially turn it into a business. Haven't even gotten through a complete run of LTU yet but I'm developing faster than ever, incredible.
