Thank you for chiming in @Benjamin
Anyways....
I notice the diamond I am and my subconscious still has a pattern of 'its scary, lets throw up all kind of confusion, fear, shit and lets just be depressed' im laughing now as Im processing this stuff and its a losing game for it. Im growing stronger, im finding more and more interests, and tbh, I see this bs front weaken more and more.
Just breath. Release.
Women respond still. They need good dick, boundaries and communication, even if it is for my own sake. new girl at work, I caught her checking me out already and im semi engaging due my internals being scrambled. Im more fluid and involve randoms in my conversations. In a way im getting disillusioned. all women are the same, like my lil sister, yet attraction is an automatic process, as in, im snipering those I find attractive and like. Its like all is one big women pool and im being hit with those im attracted to, which surprises me at times, yet is so natural and fluid.
Also, all this crap thrown in the way to discourage me/to overcome and grow through, its bs. In an sense, yes im very elusive, sexual and what not, but also, im so done with it, that im going to be fucking direct with girls. Knowing my value and worth.
My beliefs around money have been shifted pretty strongly actually now that I realize it.
Im way more self sufficient. Centred even.knowing im in it for myself, which brings immense power with itself. Im good. Worthy. No more seeking compulsively on the internet for other opinions like a habit as it is damaging.
Lets see where this all takes me.
Anyways....
I notice the diamond I am and my subconscious still has a pattern of 'its scary, lets throw up all kind of confusion, fear, shit and lets just be depressed' im laughing now as Im processing this stuff and its a losing game for it. Im growing stronger, im finding more and more interests, and tbh, I see this bs front weaken more and more.
Just breath. Release.
Women respond still. They need good dick, boundaries and communication, even if it is for my own sake. new girl at work, I caught her checking me out already and im semi engaging due my internals being scrambled. Im more fluid and involve randoms in my conversations. In a way im getting disillusioned. all women are the same, like my lil sister, yet attraction is an automatic process, as in, im snipering those I find attractive and like. Its like all is one big women pool and im being hit with those im attracted to, which surprises me at times, yet is so natural and fluid.
Also, all this crap thrown in the way to discourage me/to overcome and grow through, its bs. In an sense, yes im very elusive, sexual and what not, but also, im so done with it, that im going to be fucking direct with girls. Knowing my value and worth.
My beliefs around money have been shifted pretty strongly actually now that I realize it.
Im way more self sufficient. Centred even.knowing im in it for myself, which brings immense power with itself. Im good. Worthy. No more seeking compulsively on the internet for other opinions like a habit as it is damaging.
Lets see where this all takes me.
