04-06-2019, 10:23 AM
I have 2 rounds of 8 loops in. Before the break I ran it without break at all, aswell as running more then 8 loops. It left me fried, on edge. Now, in the 2 day break interesting things have happened, lots of rule 4 stuff through artwork and painting from an artist whose name I will not mention.
Anyways, 2 sessions done (the night of april 4th - april 5th was first night )
FRM is very effective. Its like a total life overhaul. I decided when shit became raw to embrace "death" like literally not giving a fuck at all. Full on nothing to lose. If I die so fucking be it. Throw it all in the abyss/void, even if it means destruction and being stiched back together.
So, all my hangups/issues we're dragged to the surface in a way like though love. Pull up your boots, no holding back.
Looks are back. I like socializing and I love women. There is still a side of me thats full on "dark" like, hate and what not. Collapsibg all limits.
Im way more honest with my desires which empowers me.
I realize there are multiple layers to seduction. I was kind of focussed on removing the kinks out of the "phoneline" and making it smooth, but thats only the beginning. Influence, persuasion, seduction, all fall inro place.
Also, my mind is a sneaky mofo. Atleast, some things are. FRM def is in overdrive, feeling good aswell, yet I recognize a pattern. Realisations are fleeting. The part dealing with comes to the surface, only to have it quick into hiding. F-in ninja. Like a flipflop between execution and still dealing with stuff. I also realized in my 2 day break how DMSI concepts are fairly 'easy' in what it aims to accomplish. I make it hard on myself, or rather, mindcluttered and having things to work through. Overal im actually hopefull. I recognize exactly the anxiety that pops up at times, only to halt it and grasp it. To stop it in its tracks ( such as fear of kids)
Having more shifts that makes me more ruthless in approach and in energy. Even my view on trauma has been changed. Im now in the process of "fuck it do it anyway" or rather sllowing the process to be happening, thus getting out of my way for autopilot yo do its thing.
Im also experiencing 'spontaneous mental evocations' I can summon what in my mind to the forefront and interact with it like a separated entity. Trauma, anxiety and what not.
My mind is full blown seductive at this point. All falls into place and has its place. Even with the right energy offering a flower is an act of seduction. Im getting insight at the very moment. Its like im changing as I write this now.
Nothing is forbidden. Taboo is taunting. Be tantalizing.
Anyways, 2 sessions done (the night of april 4th - april 5th was first night )
FRM is very effective. Its like a total life overhaul. I decided when shit became raw to embrace "death" like literally not giving a fuck at all. Full on nothing to lose. If I die so fucking be it. Throw it all in the abyss/void, even if it means destruction and being stiched back together.
So, all my hangups/issues we're dragged to the surface in a way like though love. Pull up your boots, no holding back.
Looks are back. I like socializing and I love women. There is still a side of me thats full on "dark" like, hate and what not. Collapsibg all limits.
Im way more honest with my desires which empowers me.
I realize there are multiple layers to seduction. I was kind of focussed on removing the kinks out of the "phoneline" and making it smooth, but thats only the beginning. Influence, persuasion, seduction, all fall inro place.
Also, my mind is a sneaky mofo. Atleast, some things are. FRM def is in overdrive, feeling good aswell, yet I recognize a pattern. Realisations are fleeting. The part dealing with comes to the surface, only to have it quick into hiding. F-in ninja. Like a flipflop between execution and still dealing with stuff. I also realized in my 2 day break how DMSI concepts are fairly 'easy' in what it aims to accomplish. I make it hard on myself, or rather, mindcluttered and having things to work through. Overal im actually hopefull. I recognize exactly the anxiety that pops up at times, only to halt it and grasp it. To stop it in its tracks ( such as fear of kids)
Having more shifts that makes me more ruthless in approach and in energy. Even my view on trauma has been changed. Im now in the process of "fuck it do it anyway" or rather sllowing the process to be happening, thus getting out of my way for autopilot yo do its thing.
Im also experiencing 'spontaneous mental evocations' I can summon what in my mind to the forefront and interact with it like a separated entity. Trauma, anxiety and what not.
My mind is full blown seductive at this point. All falls into place and has its place. Even with the right energy offering a flower is an act of seduction. Im getting insight at the very moment. Its like im changing as I write this now.
Nothing is forbidden. Taboo is taunting. Be tantalizing.
