03-25-2019, 04:33 AM
I feel pullled apart internally. My subconscious fighting tooth and nail, my new self being more and more pronouned, old self fighting for existence and its life. I really am done with this auto trigger that keeps happening and refuses to let go, its like being in a very rusty state, a state of fear based patterns. Makes me want to curl up in a ball and give up. Like being empty, apathic, passive and fearfull. My fucking living quality feels like its suffering. Its akin to an beast going wild in a way to small cage.
Im having consistent attraction from women even when feeling totally like shit. FRM seems to kick my ass.
Worthiness, shame, are some things coming up. Dont get me wrong, im taking huge steps an all of this and see female energy as healing. Im not under the impression women cant be batshit destructive, but hey, I love women.
Im also not intimidated by women. Sure, at times depending what kinda shit is going on, I can be socially off, but theyre girls at heart and want hard dick. Like, when im out and social and saying hey, I notice how some girls are lonely as shit.
Im having consistent attraction from women even when feeling totally like shit. FRM seems to kick my ass.
Worthiness, shame, are some things coming up. Dont get me wrong, im taking huge steps an all of this and see female energy as healing. Im not under the impression women cant be batshit destructive, but hey, I love women.
Im also not intimidated by women. Sure, at times depending what kinda shit is going on, I can be socially off, but theyre girls at heart and want hard dick. Like, when im out and social and saying hey, I notice how some girls are lonely as shit.
