Transcendent Sith Lord's LTU 5.0 Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Well, thought I would put in a post since its my birthday today.

Going on with the sub straight didn't last very long. Started noticing this pressure building in my head at times so I finally took a break. Today is actually my third day taking a break since I was still experiencing some pressure build up at times. I do think I might experiment with maybe 4 days on and 1 day off to see if that might help. I did notice that I was getting a compounding of results during the time and I pretty much blazed through a bunch of courses this week. I'm pretty much going to be down to 7 courses left by the end of this weekend. I could have been down to 6 but I decided to slow down a bit because I wouldn't be able to start on some courses until this coming Thursday. Wanted to keep myself busy until then.

Anyway, I am pretty happy with myself at the moment. Pretty much I'm pretty sure if I keep this up I should most likely graduate during the first week of April. After that I pretty much have some options which I have talked to the Indonesian girl about. It seems like due to certain events coming up that we might move the meeting until some time in Early June. So, I can either stay here in the US for the next two months working a job here or go straight to Korea for work and hopefully find a job that will let me take the whole month of June off pretty much. I would prefer the latter.

As far as other things I am doing quite well. I'm noticing the longer I use this sub the more I am starting to develop some will power and self control. Its getting easier and easier to not do things that aren't really all that great for me. Its also getting easier to do things that I should be doing as well. Getting all those courses done this week and actually putting my mind to it is proof of that. I have really been thinking about things I hadn't thought about in a while as well.

I will probably still start working on another degree in September but I don't think that will be the end for me. Its not set in stone but I feel like something in this sub is changing the way I think to a high degree. I'm realizing I really want to do something that will really actually impact people's lives. With that in mind I have really considered once MLS 6G eventually comes out (though that won't be for a while) if I am financially secure and can afford it I think I will probably be going to medical school. I found that there are pretty good medical schools in countries in Europe and even some places in Asia where you can get just as good an education but do it in half the time it would take in America. I'm highly looking at Poland if that is a case as they have a 5 year program for generalist, though it would take a little bit longer if you continue to specialize.

I admit part of me wants to do this for the good pay but the other thing is something has "reawaken" in me that hasn't been there for a long time. When I was younger and been mistreated but hadn't gotten to the point of being filled with anger and hate I actually would see or hear about certain atrocities done against certain people and really feel for them. I would feel this kind of anger and hated this injustice I would see done to people. Though slowly as I myself got mistreated I started to just have more anger and hate for people in general until I felt like I couldn't really feel anything anymore. I think with the combination of all this emotional healing and happiness programming I just have re-found that part of me but its even better. I see some of the injustice done to people and yet at the same time I feel this strong motivation to want to do something about it. So depending on if I'm financially stable at the time and when MLS 6G comes out I might move down this path.

Granted, I might not be done until I am probably in my 40s but if everything goes well and Shannon gets a Anti-aging sub going that probably won't be too much of a problem rofl. Anyway, that is all for now. You guys have a great day!