Transcendent Sith Lord's LTU 5.0 Journal

[DarthXedonias]

While I was typing this out I just realize something as well. I have taken note of those things I have mentioned in this post but other than that I haven't really been focusing on whether the sub has been working this whole time or not. I haven't been doing my usual over-analyzing and looking for results like I used to do. I find that in of itself is probably good. I do feel like at times I was looking too much for results all the time.

Nice, this is just since LTU? Maybe it's something Shannon has in it. I'm the same, i'm looking too much for the results at times which I know isn't benefical but I find it difficult not to.

Yeah, this is mostly during LTU that I noticed. Though I should mention that with the last DMSI I didn't really go out much to see results because it was like I was terrified of going outside my apartment. 

What I would do in your shoes, Darth: not take her back once she's shown herself unworthy. Too much trouble in my experience.

Oh believe me, since the last time I reported on here I have come to the same conclusion. I think I finally pushed through that fear of "failure" that I was facing. I just need to let it die and move on. I'm kind of tired of being hung up on past lost opportunities which might not have worked anyway. I also think it was me taking on too much of the responsibility for the "failure". If someone else messes up big time in the relationship I shouldn't be taking responsibility for that. 

On another note, I think I might do what others are doing and not take any breaks for a while because I have noticed what others have reported, especially concerning DMSI. It would seem like on the "off" days I start regressing a little bit and then when i start up I don't see the noticeable results until day 2 or 3. So I think like others my Subconscious is using the off days to aggressively undo whatever progress was made (I noticed recently I started playing video games and watching youtube all day again,etc). So, I'm going to keep going with this for a while and stop if I see any negative signs from not getting any rest days. I might try switching to hybrid as well even though I stick with ultrasonic mainly because hearing ocean surf or trickling stream highly irritates me for some reason. 

As for everything else my classes are coming along slowly. I just finished a paper for another class. So I should only have 11 classes left and should be working on another one soon. I'm hoping to bring that down to either 9 or 6 classes left by the end of this week. I don't have to work as quickly due to some changes but I still want to get done as soon as possible. As for the Indonesian women things are going just great and we are getting along better than ever. Haven't been able to talk as much these last few days because the family she helps has been working her really hard but she does plan on leaving there employ by the end of April. Hence why I have a bit more time to get my classes done. I haven't decided if when I finish if I'm going to try to get a job lined up for me in Korea before I leave for Indonesia or come back home for a bit after Indonesia to get some stuff taken care of then leave for Korea. Honestly it would be better for me to just have a job lined up before I leave hopefully. 

Anyway, that's about it for now. Will update again soon.