03-13-2019, 06:54 AM
Last few days are about getting out of my head. Im doing inner work and talk to girls. Still nofap and disrooting more damaging habits ( high carb food, processed foods ) tackling automatic actions, such as visiting some sites, lower social media activity etc.
Was out with I today, and she supplicates. when I need something, I just talk with people, no A.A in, lets say, stores. Its fluid. She is giving and I love it. When I need something, she is eager to assist me and shes always in my vicinity. Gonna call her by name in my interactions.
Also, I seems to get more attracted because of this dhv of walking up to people freely.. In turn, because we we're together and are somewhat complimenting eachother, I had 5 girls suddenly throw IOIs at the same time. Good. I take control of conversations easily and am unfazed when it happens. With random women also, they make a remark, say something and I hijack.
Lots of touches with I. Appearing accidental but im touchy with I. Other females at work, like E, when she leaned in right jn front of my face, eyes 5 cm from mine, I held it, eye fucked her while she held it. Our lips almost touched. She is full on physical. With other women at work im also just holding eye contact.
People invite themselves in my life. Gym, hanging out, wanting to date, the whole things. Got 2 numbers. N will visit friday. Last time I saw her was 3.1 or begin 3.2 cant remember.
Im having women always with me. Getting treated like a vip yet im starting to just realize it. My internals are changing fast, improving, fear is seen and dealt with. Some other feelings are faced and im willing to go as far as to "conjure" scenarios and see my response. Pretty sure things like smoking throw me in a funk. Yet, the urges of smoking are that. Urges.
Im shifting between ars amorata world view and alpha 1.0 (?) Full on barbarian badboy asshole type which cares for nothing at all and is fully into himself. The other is, the loving women paradigm of zan perrion and hans comyn. Who is more about the renessaince man, pirate outlaw, and is actually loving women and delighting in beauty. Who are about letting go, of limiting beliefs, of being authentic self and removing layers we picked up along our way.
Just keep going. Im already attractive at my core.
Was out with I today, and she supplicates. when I need something, I just talk with people, no A.A in, lets say, stores. Its fluid. She is giving and I love it. When I need something, she is eager to assist me and shes always in my vicinity. Gonna call her by name in my interactions.
Also, I seems to get more attracted because of this dhv of walking up to people freely.. In turn, because we we're together and are somewhat complimenting eachother, I had 5 girls suddenly throw IOIs at the same time. Good. I take control of conversations easily and am unfazed when it happens. With random women also, they make a remark, say something and I hijack.
Lots of touches with I. Appearing accidental but im touchy with I. Other females at work, like E, when she leaned in right jn front of my face, eyes 5 cm from mine, I held it, eye fucked her while she held it. Our lips almost touched. She is full on physical. With other women at work im also just holding eye contact.
People invite themselves in my life. Gym, hanging out, wanting to date, the whole things. Got 2 numbers. N will visit friday. Last time I saw her was 3.1 or begin 3.2 cant remember.
Im having women always with me. Getting treated like a vip yet im starting to just realize it. My internals are changing fast, improving, fear is seen and dealt with. Some other feelings are faced and im willing to go as far as to "conjure" scenarios and see my response. Pretty sure things like smoking throw me in a funk. Yet, the urges of smoking are that. Urges.
Im shifting between ars amorata world view and alpha 1.0 (?) Full on barbarian badboy asshole type which cares for nothing at all and is fully into himself. The other is, the loving women paradigm of zan perrion and hans comyn. Who is more about the renessaince man, pirate outlaw, and is actually loving women and delighting in beauty. Who are about letting go, of limiting beliefs, of being authentic self and removing layers we picked up along our way.
Just keep going. Im already attractive at my core.
