02-18-2019, 02:27 PM
I wasn't reporting for a while, so here the goods and the bads. I noticed less fear and more comfort at several situations while being outside. Usually I am more tight when I am around people but at these times I acted more naturally and more like me. It is probably still subtle for people around me but for me it was noticeable. Last week I also started to get more messages from some girls I know and first time in my life I got some nudes messaged. They were telling me how wet they get when they think about me and such stuff. One said very clearly that we could have some fun when I visit her next time. Unfortunately all of them live in a different country so I just can't simply come over. Which brings me to the bads.
These manifestations and such messages seem only to come from girls from Asia, from the girls here I don't get such messages. When it comes to the aura so it is much more subtle in this version than with every version before. Especially with 3.2, there it was like a supernova, extreme hard firering. But what I noticed is that girls tend to be more scared by me or they look annoyed with this version. It seem to have started with 3.2 to a small degree, but gets more noticeable with this version. Until 3.1 it didn't seem to be a problem. After thinking about it I don't think that's the aura effect itself, I think it has too do with my sexual energy. With this version I have almost no desire to fap. And while I don't care about all the nofap thing it leaves me with very high sexual energy levels and the energy feels very raw and extreme. And first I did think woman may react the way they do because they are afraid that they cannot control theirselves. But now I am starting to believe that they are afraid that I cannot control myself when they feel my extreme sexual energy. One girl I usually see at the bus stop seems really afraid. I don't want to go into details here but she is seeing me most likely as some kind of predator and not as a sexually attractive man.
At some points I seem also to be overwhelmed by this sub, like it is trying too much at once for me and I get stuck. Since USLM I am running all subs at my own number of loops because of the exhaustment which 3.2 gave me. So what I can say now is that 4 loops seem to be my personal limit for now. In the mid of the 4th loop I am starting to get this feeling like getting a panic attack. It's still under the surface and I seem to be calm superficially but I notice that there is the ultimate terror going on beyond the surface. What I can definitely say is that one loop is not enough and leaves me just with exhaustion. 2 and 3 loops are fine.
I may forgot something but it's late here and I am tired so I may add something tomorrow.
These manifestations and such messages seem only to come from girls from Asia, from the girls here I don't get such messages. When it comes to the aura so it is much more subtle in this version than with every version before. Especially with 3.2, there it was like a supernova, extreme hard firering. But what I noticed is that girls tend to be more scared by me or they look annoyed with this version. It seem to have started with 3.2 to a small degree, but gets more noticeable with this version. Until 3.1 it didn't seem to be a problem. After thinking about it I don't think that's the aura effect itself, I think it has too do with my sexual energy. With this version I have almost no desire to fap. And while I don't care about all the nofap thing it leaves me with very high sexual energy levels and the energy feels very raw and extreme. And first I did think woman may react the way they do because they are afraid that they cannot control theirselves. But now I am starting to believe that they are afraid that I cannot control myself when they feel my extreme sexual energy. One girl I usually see at the bus stop seems really afraid. I don't want to go into details here but she is seeing me most likely as some kind of predator and not as a sexually attractive man.
At some points I seem also to be overwhelmed by this sub, like it is trying too much at once for me and I get stuck. Since USLM I am running all subs at my own number of loops because of the exhaustment which 3.2 gave me. So what I can say now is that 4 loops seem to be my personal limit for now. In the mid of the 4th loop I am starting to get this feeling like getting a panic attack. It's still under the surface and I seem to be calm superficially but I notice that there is the ultimate terror going on beyond the surface. What I can definitely say is that one loop is not enough and leaves me just with exhaustion. 2 and 3 loops are fine.
I may forgot something but it's late here and I am tired so I may add something tomorrow.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
