02-12-2019, 04:55 PM
Yesterday before using trickling masked last night to start cycle 3 was at the gym.
I said hi to a lady i have spoken to a couple times previously and as i was walking away wasnt sure if she said anything more than hi back to me i think she did so it sat on my mind a while, i went upstairs got on the stair climber next to her then when she finished tried to say sorry if didnt hear her and hope she didnt think i was ignoring her. She said she doesnt remember if said anything more and all good but it continued to sit on my mind, since clearly that lacks confidence and doesnt show any alpha traits either.
So now i feel bad incase she thought i ignored her then when tried to talk and say sorry about that was hard to talk being on a stair climber machine before she walked off.
So that didnt go well, so confidence and signs of showing self esteem improvements isnt there since if i had more i would of just let it slide and moved on instead of trying to apologise for something she didnt really care much about in first place.
Listened to trickling stream masked last night dont feel any different waking up this morning or any dreams. Heading to the shops soon see if anything happens there.
I said hi to a lady i have spoken to a couple times previously and as i was walking away wasnt sure if she said anything more than hi back to me i think she did so it sat on my mind a while, i went upstairs got on the stair climber next to her then when she finished tried to say sorry if didnt hear her and hope she didnt think i was ignoring her. She said she doesnt remember if said anything more and all good but it continued to sit on my mind, since clearly that lacks confidence and doesnt show any alpha traits either.
So now i feel bad incase she thought i ignored her then when tried to talk and say sorry about that was hard to talk being on a stair climber machine before she walked off.
So that didnt go well, so confidence and signs of showing self esteem improvements isnt there since if i had more i would of just let it slide and moved on instead of trying to apologise for something she didnt really care much about in first place.
Listened to trickling stream masked last night dont feel any different waking up this morning or any dreams. Heading to the shops soon see if anything happens there.
