USLM3- The Journey to Success

[mat422]

So either I'm processing more fears due to USLM3 or TID from LTU is kicking this fear removal into overdrive. Last night I was laying in bed listening to USLM3 and I had this feeling that something evil was watching me. I didn't hallucinate, but at the same time I couldn't shake the feeling that something was going to break through my window and attack me. And when I finally started nodding off I got some intense hypnagogic hallucinations. Whispers, like voices saying "he can't do this", "he'll fail", "it's not going to work", etc.

But I feel like I'm getting closer. I'm able to focus on moving past the fear and ignoring the distraction that try to derail me.

This is most interesting indeed. What did you get the impression the voices were referring to?

I'm pretty sure it was in reference to my desire and goal of breaking free from the typical 9-5 lifestyle most people live. Basically moving away from the safe route and doing things my own way. The way that will make me happy vs only giving me security. I think really what it's about most of all is taking my artistic calling more seriously. I've been in a very strong tug of war these past few months trying to find a balance in my life. It's been going back and forth between "I'll just keep this as a fun hobby, no pressure" to "I want this to be the primary focus in my life". Among that is the very strong fear, that might have been passed on from my parents, that it isn't particularly "safe" to go that route.