01-31-2019, 08:59 AM
Last night when I woke up for a bit around 3 a.m, I noticed that, in my sleep, Ive put off my sleepphones aswell as my loops we're stopped. This isnt the first time, it is on 3.3.1-D tho. Its reason why I went for my bluetooth speakers, which, I can't find figure out about if theyre mono or stereo. The times I used it since 3.3.1, I have had more then once that in my first and second loop, I felt my body tingle and energy flood me. So it works. Now, how reliable is bluetooth?
When I found my loops interrupted, headphones off around 3 a.m, I have no idea how many loops we're in at all. When I did it, I have no idea. How long the asrb break was? No idea. So, when I found it, I ran my loops again and had some dreams I cant recall. I went for the whole 8 loops back to back, and am feeling rough, emotional, and in turmoil. On the brink of breaking yet, knowing, with this impact, its gonna be good in the end.
Loads of discouraging crap comes up. Feeling sorta weak. No hint of nofap break at all, just in total processing mode.
At the gym I can go on noticable longer. I had a really short fuse in traffic and noticable roadrage behind the wheel. Also, it stirrs my disdain to stupid people. Like, they function so low ( it could well be projecting of myself on them ) but them, people can really piss me off, acting like suicidal monkys at times. Goddamn.
My frame in confrontation is solid. Fear has been gone around that, no matter if its an ex convict, im like, "bring it then, if your so tough?" Not in words, but in fearlessness, firing shots back one after another.
When at the gym, I saw a girl. I was pretty much still processing loops and my mind is numb. Anyways, she was on the treatmill, I was doing weights. In my breaks I found myself drifting to her. She tied up her hair in a ponytail on que, each time she did her one minute hiit, she exposed her armpits fully. Like literally waving her scent signature.
Whatever. Still feeling rough at this moment. Im getting aware as to hows and whys with some things, and it boils down yo fear and preservation. Fuck that. 3.3 and 3.3.1 are major step ups in that its bringing me way beyond my prime, as in, way beyond my teenage sex and raging hormone self.
When I found my loops interrupted, headphones off around 3 a.m, I have no idea how many loops we're in at all. When I did it, I have no idea. How long the asrb break was? No idea. So, when I found it, I ran my loops again and had some dreams I cant recall. I went for the whole 8 loops back to back, and am feeling rough, emotional, and in turmoil. On the brink of breaking yet, knowing, with this impact, its gonna be good in the end.
Loads of discouraging crap comes up. Feeling sorta weak. No hint of nofap break at all, just in total processing mode.
At the gym I can go on noticable longer. I had a really short fuse in traffic and noticable roadrage behind the wheel. Also, it stirrs my disdain to stupid people. Like, they function so low ( it could well be projecting of myself on them ) but them, people can really piss me off, acting like suicidal monkys at times. Goddamn.
My frame in confrontation is solid. Fear has been gone around that, no matter if its an ex convict, im like, "bring it then, if your so tough?" Not in words, but in fearlessness, firing shots back one after another.
When at the gym, I saw a girl. I was pretty much still processing loops and my mind is numb. Anyways, she was on the treatmill, I was doing weights. In my breaks I found myself drifting to her. She tied up her hair in a ponytail on que, each time she did her one minute hiit, she exposed her armpits fully. Like literally waving her scent signature.
Whatever. Still feeling rough at this moment. Im getting aware as to hows and whys with some things, and it boils down yo fear and preservation. Fuck that. 3.3 and 3.3.1 are major step ups in that its bringing me way beyond my prime, as in, way beyond my teenage sex and raging hormone self.
