Day 2
Got loads of fuck me eyes, strong bedroom eyes from women/girls. With other people I get stares, deadface/blankfaces, who is this guy and just empty stares like in some starstruck awe. FRM feels deeper. At times I wonder whats going on at all yet I can feel the FRM working heaps internal. Already its a massive shift in externals. Friends seem way more supplicating and submissive towards me in a sense.
Seduction feeling in my core. Im closer and closer.
K reached out, why we dont app anymore, yet feeling not confident in it. Textgame is a thing still? No, its fear. Not giving a fuk. Then my mind shifted, and saw my 10s in my mind. Curly, feminine, kinky, open, just an dynamic to write home to. It turned me on.
Dominance is also back full force. Understanding it and growing into a stronger power exchange dynamic. Things I havent really thought about now have my attention ( such as some roleplays )
When I relax all comes together. Im still able to tap in some savage relentless energy, and sometging to easy to build upon.
Day 3
Some old things with a coworker of mine have surfaced. Like, trying to get me work overtime while I cant do tgat. I told him, and he acted as if I were to blame ( powerlessness?) It send me in a rage. Right now Im feeling pretty much hurt for some reason. Also, it brings back memories, want to punch a hole in the wall due unfiltered rage. He tried this shit before. He cant be communicated with. Very much male-submissive dynamic, believing in marriage to be the end all and overall emotional reactionairy driven. 0 respect and being uncalibrated.
Edit: this is similar to the bs I hear about "oh you just have stick with it, how will you ever get in life anywhere otherwise if you give up every time?" Or something other forcefull shit. There might some fears being involved ( my own in an way ) water and oil dont mix and there are a shitton of people on this planet.
Meanwhile my escape is growing stronger and growing clear in my vision. Im way more decisive to get what I want. Im already at my plan to switch and get it straight. Its dominating to begin with. Just old attachments coming out.
Got loads of fuck me eyes, strong bedroom eyes from women/girls. With other people I get stares, deadface/blankfaces, who is this guy and just empty stares like in some starstruck awe. FRM feels deeper. At times I wonder whats going on at all yet I can feel the FRM working heaps internal. Already its a massive shift in externals. Friends seem way more supplicating and submissive towards me in a sense.
Seduction feeling in my core. Im closer and closer.
K reached out, why we dont app anymore, yet feeling not confident in it. Textgame is a thing still? No, its fear. Not giving a fuk. Then my mind shifted, and saw my 10s in my mind. Curly, feminine, kinky, open, just an dynamic to write home to. It turned me on.
Dominance is also back full force. Understanding it and growing into a stronger power exchange dynamic. Things I havent really thought about now have my attention ( such as some roleplays )
When I relax all comes together. Im still able to tap in some savage relentless energy, and sometging to easy to build upon.
Day 3
Some old things with a coworker of mine have surfaced. Like, trying to get me work overtime while I cant do tgat. I told him, and he acted as if I were to blame ( powerlessness?) It send me in a rage. Right now Im feeling pretty much hurt for some reason. Also, it brings back memories, want to punch a hole in the wall due unfiltered rage. He tried this shit before. He cant be communicated with. Very much male-submissive dynamic, believing in marriage to be the end all and overall emotional reactionairy driven. 0 respect and being uncalibrated.
Edit: this is similar to the bs I hear about "oh you just have stick with it, how will you ever get in life anywhere otherwise if you give up every time?" Or something other forcefull shit. There might some fears being involved ( my own in an way ) water and oil dont mix and there are a shitton of people on this planet.
Meanwhile my escape is growing stronger and growing clear in my vision. Im way more decisive to get what I want. Im already at my plan to switch and get it straight. Its dominating to begin with. Just old attachments coming out.
