A Sexy Alex, stage 2: DMSI Journal (now 3.3.2!)

[apollolux]

As I get ready to begin listening to DMSI 3.3.1D, I'd like to note some updates here that I feel may be relevant to my DMSI listening experience.

Very often, more often than my right arm tingling, I feel my right ear canal tingling like there's an errant hair that needs to be tweezed or something but there's no hair to tweeze. It feels deep enough that I can't scratch it with a fingernail or a cotton swab and it's relatively bothersome. I have no actual idea if it's DMSI-related or not, but if planning on associating my right arm tingling with attraction signaling then I might as well through my right ear tingling into the mix as well.

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday to follow-up about the blood draws I had last week for the low-T. Where my last draw (October I think) said I was around 100 for testosterone, this draw said I was over 1000 testosterone! On the minus side, it also said I had high levels of estrogen (55 where their current high is 40), which may or may not play a role in the current bouts of tiredness, lack of energy, and recent weight gain.

So yea. It's interesting that, despite this roller coaster of health issues, my self-esteem is pretty high. I'm not delusional, i know my gut has gotten bigger and that, for the most part, this is something I can combat and control. Even though I've gained weight and size, however, I still feel as good looking (at least facially and pectorally) as before I started gaining weight. This is probably the most significant positive to have come from listening to DMSI, and even BIABWS+DAOS before it: despite the hardships I've encountered over the years, I now feel good about my abilities and chances to overcome them and I feel good about myself and my appearance.

While I think there is still some resistance happening internally, especially with regards to accomplishing the main goal of actually attracting beautiful women to approach and proposition me for sex, I do feel that there has been progress being made towards developing sexual irresistibility.