USLM3- The Journey to Success

[mat422]

Things still not going too great here. But I'm not freaking out over it. I'm around a lot of pushy extroverted sales type people and I fucking hate it. But to be clear I don't hate them, they're fine. I'm just so polar opposite it elicits a reaction from all of them. It's one of those things where I clearly don't fit in this environment, yet I'm somehow expected to. As I've grown and matured and embraced myself, I don't bend as much around people. And I think it presents a very strong contrast that people become uncomfortable with. They want me to be more like the type of people they are used to.

I had one of the managers here tell me that I needed to be less nice because people would take advantage of me. I told her that's not the first time someone has told me that. I'm a naturally nice person, I've been called too nice at times. People generally don't see the teeth unless they really push it. I don't consider it weakness. I just have a lot of self control and roll with the punches. I've dealt with so much shit in my life that minor inconveniences don't irritate me like most people.

But this has been the pattern my whole life. I don't think it will ever go away. It just gets fucking tiring having people need some kind of explanation for why I'm different. As if I chose to be this way. Makes me wonder if I just have shit luck running non stop into extroverts in my life. No wonder why I have a tendency to isolate myself a lot of the time.