01-14-2019, 12:25 PM
DMSI 3.3D Day 39
Sorry for not posting for a long time. In fact this post won't be long either. When I felt like posting the forum was out, when it was online I didn't fell like it. This is sometimes how the things go.
My habits are still going strong. Despite falls I don't give up on NoFap, if anything I get more and more convinced how important it is.
The problem is I fell so weird recently. Like I want to get my shit together and I want to prepare myself for things to come but not quite ready to make a decisive move. I would love to date to f**k some beautiful women, but on the other hand I don't feel like putting serious effort into it. Recently when asked I found myself giving excuse of "It's too cold, I don't feel like dating and going outside." Damn, I'm full of crap. At the same time it's crap I'm consciously accepting and not that willing to fight. :/
I've met with my female friend today (the one sending me picture of her boobs) and I talked to her about changes I'm undergoing right now. She was surprised and in real awe. I may undersell those things I do right now but apparently for the outsider (and someone who knows me for a very long time) these are huge. As for our interactions nothing special happened (nor I wanted to/was prepared to happen), however I noticed she was talking quite a lot about children. Also, for the first time, she told me she masturbates! That was surely not a coincidence, I mean I talked with her about NoFap before, but she wouldn't tell me her side back then!
Sorry for not posting for a long time. In fact this post won't be long either. When I felt like posting the forum was out, when it was online I didn't fell like it. This is sometimes how the things go.
My habits are still going strong. Despite falls I don't give up on NoFap, if anything I get more and more convinced how important it is.
The problem is I fell so weird recently. Like I want to get my shit together and I want to prepare myself for things to come but not quite ready to make a decisive move. I would love to date to f**k some beautiful women, but on the other hand I don't feel like putting serious effort into it. Recently when asked I found myself giving excuse of "It's too cold, I don't feel like dating and going outside." Damn, I'm full of crap. At the same time it's crap I'm consciously accepting and not that willing to fight. :/
I've met with my female friend today (the one sending me picture of her boobs) and I talked to her about changes I'm undergoing right now. She was surprised and in real awe. I may undersell those things I do right now but apparently for the outsider (and someone who knows me for a very long time) these are huge. As for our interactions nothing special happened (nor I wanted to/was prepared to happen), however I noticed she was talking quite a lot about children. Also, for the first time, she told me she masturbates! That was surely not a coincidence, I mean I talked with her about NoFap before, but she wouldn't tell me her side back then!
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
