01-07-2019, 04:42 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-07-2019, 04:42 PM by Mystic Pymp.)
DMSI 3.3D Day 32
Few last days had been tough. I fapped and lost my strike, thankfully I got back on track and I've just completed 48h. It wasn't worth it (damn, bragging rights on this forum would be worth much more alone
) but I don't consider my reset a failure. I got longer strike than ever since I started thinking about NoFap so it's huge success anyways.
It might sound funny but I'm glad I'm back to work from my vacation. What killed my strike was more than anything else boredom and my job gives me lots of satisfaction, so once I'm back at it and have much less free time to waste around I'm also much better in other fields.
As for resistance and DMSI in general... well, I feel kind of tired. Last week I was so optimistic, today I was just going with the flow. Thankfully habits I've developed so far are quite strong so no progress I've gained last 2 weeks is lost.
There are still lots of things I fear greatly, I may or may not write about them in the future if I have time and will to write something comprehensive about the topic. Rest assured I contemplate, muse and meditate on the topic recently quite a bit. Thought alone is unpleasant as it's hard to admit some truths about yourself and your fears. Still I want to recognize and eliminate all these fears, one by one, little by little.
Few last days had been tough. I fapped and lost my strike, thankfully I got back on track and I've just completed 48h. It wasn't worth it (damn, bragging rights on this forum would be worth much more alone
) but I don't consider my reset a failure. I got longer strike than ever since I started thinking about NoFap so it's huge success anyways.It might sound funny but I'm glad I'm back to work from my vacation. What killed my strike was more than anything else boredom and my job gives me lots of satisfaction, so once I'm back at it and have much less free time to waste around I'm also much better in other fields.
As for resistance and DMSI in general... well, I feel kind of tired. Last week I was so optimistic, today I was just going with the flow. Thankfully habits I've developed so far are quite strong so no progress I've gained last 2 weeks is lost.
There are still lots of things I fear greatly, I may or may not write about them in the future if I have time and will to write something comprehensive about the topic. Rest assured I contemplate, muse and meditate on the topic recently quite a bit. Thought alone is unpleasant as it's hard to admit some truths about yourself and your fears. Still I want to recognize and eliminate all these fears, one by one, little by little.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
