Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

DMSI 3.3D Day 29

Second day of the break. Motivation kind of diminished, not enough to sabotage already developed habits, but enough to make me settle on "good enough" levels. Also I've slept for 12 hours, never a good sign. I did drink some whisky with my flatmate to cheer her up after she broke with her boyfriend, but not so much as to have hangover and make me sleep for so long.

I've just hit 7 days of NoFap and still going strong. The problem is I've started getting some thoughts like "why bother" or "just do it, it's not a big deal". I meditated a little bit on that issue and those are because of fear that goes more or less like this: "OK, but even if you'll stop fapping, what is there for you after that? Nothing! So you might just return to what you've been doing your entire life!". So, in other words, now that I'm fighting with my limitations and excuses dressed as habits, my subconscious fears the unknown and the apparent lack of stability new possibilities may bring.

Thankfully it's too late for me to simply back down and spent entire life in my mother's basement. I will stumble and I will fall for certain. But day by day I'm gaining momentum. And while I don't know where I will end up, as someone famous one day said "It's all about the journey, not the destination".

What you are describing is the effects of the FRM and PROGRESS! Congratulations! Now we just have to make this happen faster and more comfortably.

You have no idea how happy and glad I am for this progress! Previous subs I used were hit-and-miss with some of them (AM, BIATBW and DMSI 2 come to mind right now) giving me some nice results. But these were gradual and mostly little tangential came out of these. Now it's something completely different. It's kind of as if rules of the game of life are changing in my favor and now I need to learn them anew. Only it is me what's changing, not the world. Incredible feeling.