12-31-2018, 06:42 PM
You know what? I just got done working on my music again. This time I told myself to have fun and enjoy it. Use the notes I want, pick the sounds I want, stop trying to be perfect, stop trying to get a super clean polished professional sound. And you know what? It was easy to write and come up with new sections. It just flowed. It came out upbeat and happy, mixed with a little melancholy and I'm ok with that. The decisions I made were my artistic expression.
This is what I've been trying to get to for years now and I didn't even realize it. Every time I wrote a melody I just listened to that inner critic in my head saying it was basic and childish. Every time I wrote a bassline I'd hear it tell me it needs to be more complex or it was shit. I was denying my own creative expression because I was so terrified of what would come out. Not even the end result, more of the thought what others would think about it.
I got so wrapped up in getting better. Thinking I had to slog through track after track all the while beating myself up and taking no joy in my music. Is my stuff pro quality? No. But that's not why I do this. I've realized that now. Everything I'm learning right now is to be used as tools to have greater joy expressing myself. Not to fulfill some bullshit standard.
I like what I create and I'm not gonna let anyone take that away from me with their opinions anymore. And you wanna talk limiting beliefs? Man some music producers mentalities are so limited. They've been brainwashed by whats popular and hold that to the standard everyone else has to conform to. And god forbid you feel good about something you made that doesn't live up to their standards, they'll tear you down in a heartbeat. Talk about toxic.
This is what I've been trying to get to for years now and I didn't even realize it. Every time I wrote a melody I just listened to that inner critic in my head saying it was basic and childish. Every time I wrote a bassline I'd hear it tell me it needs to be more complex or it was shit. I was denying my own creative expression because I was so terrified of what would come out. Not even the end result, more of the thought what others would think about it.
I got so wrapped up in getting better. Thinking I had to slog through track after track all the while beating myself up and taking no joy in my music. Is my stuff pro quality? No. But that's not why I do this. I've realized that now. Everything I'm learning right now is to be used as tools to have greater joy expressing myself. Not to fulfill some bullshit standard.
I like what I create and I'm not gonna let anyone take that away from me with their opinions anymore. And you wanna talk limiting beliefs? Man some music producers mentalities are so limited. They've been brainwashed by whats popular and hold that to the standard everyone else has to conform to. And god forbid you feel good about something you made that doesn't live up to their standards, they'll tear you down in a heartbeat. Talk about toxic.
INFP
