12-24-2018, 06:18 AM
So as it turns out my prior beliefs of being worthless, unwanted, incapable, etc were just a result of fear. To keep people away and avoid being hurt I basically just took on the traits of someone most people wouldn't want to associate with. It also gave me a reason for not working on developing that part of myself. As long as I held these beliefs I was "safe".
I see now it's not healing that needs to take place. These assumptions about myself are just beliefs I've created for myself. They don't have a root, they are just there. I made them up so I can choose to believe whatever I want.
Especially when it comes to girls I've held the belief that most girls aren't attracted to me. But that wasn't a self esteem thing. It was to protect me and avoid having anyone get that close to me.
I see now it's not healing that needs to take place. These assumptions about myself are just beliefs I've created for myself. They don't have a root, they are just there. I made them up so I can choose to believe whatever I want.
Especially when it comes to girls I've held the belief that most girls aren't attracted to me. But that wasn't a self esteem thing. It was to protect me and avoid having anyone get that close to me.
INFP
