12-24-2018, 01:37 AM
Whoa - everyone seems to be pleased as punch on USLM 3. Today is the day I get off it. It’s working, and I’ve seen some crazy manifestations of a specificity which is undeniable, however in spite of it having SE within, I haveZero functional self esteem. I don’t much care about success or feel happy about it, my identity is mush so who is getting success?
Without self hate or anything I consider genuinely that my brain and it’s chemistry is just not up to the task of maintaining a fragile self esteem, manifesting goals , while doing complex work. The self confident guy of 6 months ago has been replaced by the brainless guy of two years ago who was struggling to string two thoughts together. USLM 3 is not sustainable for me in its present form - and I’m taking the most important lesson I learned from subs after executing MLS amazingly having run SE, that there’s no real execution unless I have a decent sense of self esteem.
Without self hate or anything I consider genuinely that my brain and it’s chemistry is just not up to the task of maintaining a fragile self esteem, manifesting goals , while doing complex work. The self confident guy of 6 months ago has been replaced by the brainless guy of two years ago who was struggling to string two thoughts together. USLM 3 is not sustainable for me in its present form - and I’m taking the most important lesson I learned from subs after executing MLS amazingly having run SE, that there’s no real execution unless I have a decent sense of self esteem.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
