12-21-2018, 05:39 AM
Yeah so I am definitely dreaming more with hybrid. Last night I had some dream that involved a certain guy that is on YouTube and his girlfriend and his home, they are pretty cool, egoless, humble couple that have wealth. They live in England but are from different countries. Anyway over the years, now and then I have seen into their life through their vlogs. And in this dream I was in their home (really nice home) and I was apart of their life as if I was just one of their friends and it felt really good, I acknowledged that they are quite well known and a YouTube "celebrity" in their own right and here I am with them.
Now, if this was anyone else I would be repulsed (especially if they are arrogant, or if I can feel their ego) but this couple are pretty humble, modest, authentic and in all honesty I would love to have the life they have.
In the dream his girlfriend did come onto me and tried to kiss me and pull me on top of her, apart of me wanted to and another part did not because the boyfriend just went outside the room.
Yeah so just being in that reality with them was nice, as there was a moment of acknowledgedment where I was in their lounge and was looking around the room and at them and thinking this is cool, I am apart of their life ?
Another dream I met up with this friend I used to have in high school and their was a moment where we was in this room and I could "see" all his accomplishments, for example their was a a few canvases where he had been painting and he was sitting down facing away from me and I was looking at this stuff and I said to him you are sooo motivated and accomplishing so much, how do you do it and he laughed positively and got up and walked out the room whilst saying I will show you, as if he was going to get something to explain to me how he does it. I was eagerly waiting for him to return to find out how I can be like him. I remember then looking on a table near by and it was a leaflet of some sort and it was saying about business plans or something like that. (I remembered more when I woke up, but as that was hours ago now a lot of the details have faded away.) But yeah he didn't come back to tell me, as there was moments where I was wondering where he had gone.
So yeah I don't really know what these dreams means per say, nor do I really care but I can see how they are related in some shape or form to the sub.
Here's to more interesting, good vibing dreams like this
On another note, for a few months I have been on a few alternative dating sites, ones that are not mainstream and are only for particular people with particular interests (that is all I am saying). This time round I was only on there just to talk, not to actually meet any women, as I have said before, they are a distraction for me at this time in my life. So I was just playing around with it more, just not really caring and also making stuff up when talking with women as I had no intention of it going anywhere, so I was putting road blocks so it would not go anywhere, anyway. I just liked the talking, I suppose it has been my way of social bonding.
It is strange because I can have this talking, bonding and getting to know someone, but I can't go any further then that, as I have learned from my previous experiences, at how it effects me with my current life situation, circumstances, mental/emotional state. I am just not in a position (in a multitude of ways) to do that. Yes I would love to have a loving relationship, but how I want it to be (in all its glory) can not happen untill I have done and achieved certain things first. This is what I am choosing, as all my previous attempts did not work, so this is my new way and it does feel good to some extent but also sometimes it can feel not so good knowing that I can't have the kind of relationship I want until I get to a certain place in my life. But I know it will be so worth it and when it does happen after I have done all what I set out to do, I will be in a much better place (emotionally, physically, mentally, situationally, financially) to truly be present and truly appreciate the relationship and offer more of my true self.
It all comes down to fulfilling my potential. The more I fulfill my potential, the more whole I am. The more whole I am, the more authentic I am. The more authentic I am, the more chance I have of having a healthy romantic relationship.
I like being on my own in all this, I like knowing that it is all up to me, I am in charge of my destiny. I have wanted to be self sufficient for a long time and what is more self sufficient then knowing the fact that it is all up to me anyway?
I don't need anyone else, I don't need pep talks, I don't need comforting, I don't need guidance from anyone else, all I need is my self and I love knowing that and feeling that. I get off on knowing that I don't need no one. And maybe most of all, at the same time I am saying f*CK you society!
My membership has run out on them dating sites, kind of glad they have as I can't read or reply to my messages on them. Gonna delete them soon and finally let them go and commit ?% to this path. As this path is THEE path for me. This is the best feeling path I have come across and all my trials and tribulations have led me here.
Now, if this was anyone else I would be repulsed (especially if they are arrogant, or if I can feel their ego) but this couple are pretty humble, modest, authentic and in all honesty I would love to have the life they have.
In the dream his girlfriend did come onto me and tried to kiss me and pull me on top of her, apart of me wanted to and another part did not because the boyfriend just went outside the room.
Yeah so just being in that reality with them was nice, as there was a moment of acknowledgedment where I was in their lounge and was looking around the room and at them and thinking this is cool, I am apart of their life ?
Another dream I met up with this friend I used to have in high school and their was a moment where we was in this room and I could "see" all his accomplishments, for example their was a a few canvases where he had been painting and he was sitting down facing away from me and I was looking at this stuff and I said to him you are sooo motivated and accomplishing so much, how do you do it and he laughed positively and got up and walked out the room whilst saying I will show you, as if he was going to get something to explain to me how he does it. I was eagerly waiting for him to return to find out how I can be like him. I remember then looking on a table near by and it was a leaflet of some sort and it was saying about business plans or something like that. (I remembered more when I woke up, but as that was hours ago now a lot of the details have faded away.) But yeah he didn't come back to tell me, as there was moments where I was wondering where he had gone.
So yeah I don't really know what these dreams means per say, nor do I really care but I can see how they are related in some shape or form to the sub.
Here's to more interesting, good vibing dreams like this
On another note, for a few months I have been on a few alternative dating sites, ones that are not mainstream and are only for particular people with particular interests (that is all I am saying). This time round I was only on there just to talk, not to actually meet any women, as I have said before, they are a distraction for me at this time in my life. So I was just playing around with it more, just not really caring and also making stuff up when talking with women as I had no intention of it going anywhere, so I was putting road blocks so it would not go anywhere, anyway. I just liked the talking, I suppose it has been my way of social bonding.
It is strange because I can have this talking, bonding and getting to know someone, but I can't go any further then that, as I have learned from my previous experiences, at how it effects me with my current life situation, circumstances, mental/emotional state. I am just not in a position (in a multitude of ways) to do that. Yes I would love to have a loving relationship, but how I want it to be (in all its glory) can not happen untill I have done and achieved certain things first. This is what I am choosing, as all my previous attempts did not work, so this is my new way and it does feel good to some extent but also sometimes it can feel not so good knowing that I can't have the kind of relationship I want until I get to a certain place in my life. But I know it will be so worth it and when it does happen after I have done all what I set out to do, I will be in a much better place (emotionally, physically, mentally, situationally, financially) to truly be present and truly appreciate the relationship and offer more of my true self.
It all comes down to fulfilling my potential. The more I fulfill my potential, the more whole I am. The more whole I am, the more authentic I am. The more authentic I am, the more chance I have of having a healthy romantic relationship.
I like being on my own in all this, I like knowing that it is all up to me, I am in charge of my destiny. I have wanted to be self sufficient for a long time and what is more self sufficient then knowing the fact that it is all up to me anyway?
I don't need anyone else, I don't need pep talks, I don't need comforting, I don't need guidance from anyone else, all I need is my self and I love knowing that and feeling that. I get off on knowing that I don't need no one. And maybe most of all, at the same time I am saying f*CK you society!
My membership has run out on them dating sites, kind of glad they have as I can't read or reply to my messages on them. Gonna delete them soon and finally let them go and commit ?% to this path. As this path is THEE path for me. This is the best feeling path I have come across and all my trials and tribulations have led me here.
