12-16-2018, 07:31 AM
I feel a lot like there's two selves inside me right now. One pushing for success and another being afraid to go after it. One self that knows intuitively what to do, how to do it, and be good at it. The other self doubting, breaking flow, and generally staying in one place it's comfortable with.
Each side wants to do it's own thing and they are butting heads. This is reflective on my experience in the past of either completely disconnecting from the sub or pushing too much and having the other side push back. I had assumed one side had to "beat" the other which is wrong. It's really just a severe lack of communication. Self sabotage is a result of one side being overly demanding without communicating what will happen to the other side.
What's missing here is integration and teamwork. Parts working together instead of pulling me in separate directions.
And for all I know there might be more in the background chatting away with each other that I'm not even aware of. This is definitely unknown territory for me. Having a self concept of how your mind works then experiencing something vastly different. No wonder so many people fail to change, there seems to be an incredibly complex ecosystem inside your own mind.
Each side wants to do it's own thing and they are butting heads. This is reflective on my experience in the past of either completely disconnecting from the sub or pushing too much and having the other side push back. I had assumed one side had to "beat" the other which is wrong. It's really just a severe lack of communication. Self sabotage is a result of one side being overly demanding without communicating what will happen to the other side.
What's missing here is integration and teamwork. Parts working together instead of pulling me in separate directions.
And for all I know there might be more in the background chatting away with each other that I'm not even aware of. This is definitely unknown territory for me. Having a self concept of how your mind works then experiencing something vastly different. No wonder so many people fail to change, there seems to be an incredibly complex ecosystem inside your own mind.
INFP