12-14-2018, 07:37 PM
Stage 3, Day 11:
- I’ve found myself having to fight procrastination a lot more the past couple days. I’m losing motivation to do anything business related. I already know this is resistance and I told my subconscious (or rather the fearful part) that it’s not going to win, and that the fact that I see this resistance is actually motivation to keep going.
- Also my libido has shot Up to ridiculous levels, I feel like this is a distraction that my subconscious is drumming up because it knows I have trouble focusing when I’m aroused, unless it’s on sex or a woman of course.
- People at work seem to be gravitating toward me more. Examples include them coming up and physically touching me more, seeming happier to see me, being more accommadating, wanting to be more playful with me and engage in social interactions more. The supervisor I now sit behind even went out of her way to strike up a conversation about music with me today and visibly made efforts to keep the conversation going, even when I tried to end it.
- The Vice President of Operations has been staring at me like I’m an alien, and even seems scared to make eye contact or speak to me when I greet him.
- Come to think of it, even though I let my grooming slip a bit lately I’ve been getting more stares from female coworkers, even the ones I’ve seen almost everyday for the past 18 months. I’m not shaving as much because I need to let the razor bumps on my cheeks heal. I kind of dislike the scruffy look though which is crazy considering the fact that I couldn’t have cared less before doing AM6. Guess the suggestions to take care of myself from AM6 were ingrained deeply.
- Notice things going more my way this month than last month. What a “coincidence” that this is the third month and luck magnifier is in the 3rd module. *cough cough*
- I’ve found myself having to fight procrastination a lot more the past couple days. I’m losing motivation to do anything business related. I already know this is resistance and I told my subconscious (or rather the fearful part) that it’s not going to win, and that the fact that I see this resistance is actually motivation to keep going.
- Also my libido has shot Up to ridiculous levels, I feel like this is a distraction that my subconscious is drumming up because it knows I have trouble focusing when I’m aroused, unless it’s on sex or a woman of course.
- People at work seem to be gravitating toward me more. Examples include them coming up and physically touching me more, seeming happier to see me, being more accommadating, wanting to be more playful with me and engage in social interactions more. The supervisor I now sit behind even went out of her way to strike up a conversation about music with me today and visibly made efforts to keep the conversation going, even when I tried to end it.
- The Vice President of Operations has been staring at me like I’m an alien, and even seems scared to make eye contact or speak to me when I greet him.
- Come to think of it, even though I let my grooming slip a bit lately I’ve been getting more stares from female coworkers, even the ones I’ve seen almost everyday for the past 18 months. I’m not shaving as much because I need to let the razor bumps on my cheeks heal. I kind of dislike the scruffy look though which is crazy considering the fact that I couldn’t have cared less before doing AM6. Guess the suggestions to take care of myself from AM6 were ingrained deeply.
- Notice things going more my way this month than last month. What a “coincidence” that this is the third month and luck magnifier is in the 3rd module. *cough cough*
