12-06-2018, 03:41 AM
LTU caught my eye. But I don't plan on abandoning this path anytime soon so whatever I do will move me forward.
I got to thinking about what occurred yesterday and how I responded to it. For most of my life I've been very critical of myself. I don't think I need to cultivate more discipline or be harder on myself right now. If anything I need to learn to be kinder and more understanding without feeling guilty or that I'm "slacking off". Bascially being firm yet gentle instaed of cracking the whip on my back.
I tend to expect the world of myself and when I don't deliver I feel bad. The problem is and always has been being too attached to that and basing my self worth on it. It's good to strive and push for greater things, but it can't be a source of self worth. I think that's where the strong fear comes from when it comes to all these challenges in life. I have this perspective of pass or fail, good or bad, useless or valuable. That's a lot of pressure I put on myself daily.
I'm getting to the bottom of this though. I'm learning with this sub it's not about pushing harder, but correcting the underlying faulty patterns that led me here to begin with. That means throwing out old critical ways of thinking that only cause me stress and hold me back.
I got to thinking about what occurred yesterday and how I responded to it. For most of my life I've been very critical of myself. I don't think I need to cultivate more discipline or be harder on myself right now. If anything I need to learn to be kinder and more understanding without feeling guilty or that I'm "slacking off". Bascially being firm yet gentle instaed of cracking the whip on my back.
I tend to expect the world of myself and when I don't deliver I feel bad. The problem is and always has been being too attached to that and basing my self worth on it. It's good to strive and push for greater things, but it can't be a source of self worth. I think that's where the strong fear comes from when it comes to all these challenges in life. I have this perspective of pass or fail, good or bad, useless or valuable. That's a lot of pressure I put on myself daily.
I'm getting to the bottom of this though. I'm learning with this sub it's not about pushing harder, but correcting the underlying faulty patterns that led me here to begin with. That means throwing out old critical ways of thinking that only cause me stress and hold me back.
INFP
